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Nyalaku.

Kau nyala,

dalam unggun api yang semakin kelabu.

Kau rona jingga,

dilakar pada lukisan,

melempar dampak terang benderang.

Kau anugerah yang menyinariku — berulang kali, lagi dan lagi.

Kau, nyalaku —

sepanjang sepuluh dekad bulan yang telah berlalu,

dan yang akan kunjung datang.

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You shine,

within the bonfire growing grayer.

You're the tangerine hue,

detailed onto the painting,

casting a bright and shining reflection.

You are the grace that lights me up — repeatedly, over and over again.

You, my miraculous ember —

for a decade of moons ago,

and those yet to grace the sky.

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Miracle x Heaven.

In the dimness of my heart, i am not going to let you go just yet —

Not now;

Not ever.

Although I was good at letting people go

Or cats.

I am rooting for you, hold onto you in my prayers—

In this arduous time,

In this rollercoaster ride,

In this uncertain universe.

I am going to keep praying for your success.

Till the end.

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Dalam redupnya hati, aku enggan sama sekali melepaskanmu pergi,

Bukan kini;

Bukan kelak.

Meski kebiasaanku melepaskan siapapun pergi

Termasuk kucing.

Kau tetapku pegang dalam doa, seikhlas pengharapan—

Di saat yang penuh tentangan ini,

Di perjalanan naik turun silih berganti,

Di semesta yang tidak terduga.

Tiada henti kumohon kejayaan buatmu.

Sampai akhir.

ditulis sebaik mendapat khabar berat pada tarikh 21 Jun 2023, sekitar jam 2:02 petang.

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Title.

‪Earth is already a strange entity. ‬

‪Everything else is just detail. ‬

‪And, a work in progress. ‬

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Mew.

Cats have superpowers—

They purr & heal.

They mew & heal.

They knead & heal.

Oh cats and their superpowers.

They can be mischievous,

and still heal themselves from any trouble caused.

They make every mishap unwritten.

Don’t they?

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Sojourn.

‪We found happiness in any person we happen to cross paths with— ‬

‪We wish them all the joy they deserve. ‬

‪Onwards we go— ‬

‪We embark on our own journey, travel our own distance.‬

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The Luxury of Understanding.

‪That every single time you let me know you understand— ‬

‪i. Were you really as compassionate? ‬

‪Or— ‬

‪ii. Were you just forcing yourself to keep up with my standards so you could stay? ‬

‪If it’s the former, i appreciate.‬

‪If it’s the latter, this is me asking you to be honest with self. ‬

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Please Try / Do Not.

‪I will always tell people—‬

‪Please try to not hurt yourself / others,‬

‪Please try to not make things hard on yourself / others,‬

‪Please try to forgive yourself / others,‬

‪Please try to forget me / him / her.‬

‪But never i will tell people to ‘please try’ to not ridicule others.‬

‪Do not ridicule others.‬

‪Do, not, ridicule, others.‬

‪You might not see it now.‬

‪Well maybe not now,‬

‪You will eventually see it.‬