DO NOT think about how mika grieved the hyakuya kids during those four years and how guilty he was because he was supposed to protect them!! But he failed! Not only failed but rather led them straight to their death.
No matter what DO NOT think about mika seeing akane's head, and realizing that the love he had for those kids, his family! The only one he had is fading away. That he knows that one day he will not care about those people that were everything to him, how sick he must have felt, or maybe how he felt the absence of sickness, the absence of anything at all, which might be even worse.
And while you're at it, do not imagine how it must have felt to help save ferid after that, to have to work with guren after that. To watch as the only person you did manage to save, the only person you still have in this world be used for their plans, and you can't do anything about it!
And then definetly don't think about how all of that made him feel so so pathetic. How in a last ditch effort he gives it his all, he gives his entire life, just to try and protect yu, try and take down one of the big threats for good AND IT WAS STILL POINTLESS! he gave away everything for a blow that did NOTHING!
"Nothing ever goes my way" <- completely correct statement.
