#mila posts

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once again thinking about the Tau field (and Kiem and Jainan there) and the fact the Jainan hasn’t expected Kiem to come for him because they argued.

when i was reading it, this part felt like that doctor who quote “do you think that i care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference?” and i was like nooo!! that’s my weak point!! now i want to bite things and scale the walls!!

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meet you at the blossom text post meme goes brrrr

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i started crying in the second half of amber’s program. im so happy that she’s happy with her score. i cant remember more words in english im still too shaken

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i love seeing ina bauers so much 😭😭😭 thank you zhang ruiyang

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i’ve watched only four episodes of meet you at the blossom with my friend, but i’m already going insane. crossdressing and aphrodisiacs in the FIRST episode. EVERYTHING ELSE IN THE NEXT THREE EPISODES?

the dynamic between huaien and xiaobao literally looks like “what if we’ve fucked while being under the influence of aphrodisiacs. what if we’ve fucked while your servants were nearby outside and could be listening. what if i changed my plans just to spend more time with you. what if i haven’t known what love is but was sure that if i felt something similar you were the only person inspiring such feelings in me” AND that ariel comic strip where she goes “oooh i cant not fuck him”, and i cant help but going insane, because it’s only one side?? and the other side makes me feel insane in another way?? ALSO. THE FACT THAT IT’S THE SECOND CASE OF CANON MALEWIFEISM I’VE EVER SEEN (and the first time i’ve seen it in drama)??

i’ve never felt more like the target audience of something (and im not really sure how i feel about that part), but the dopamine that this drama brings me?? off the charts. can’t wait to watch the rest of episodes

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i’ve finished meet you at the blossom some time ago, and now i’ve finally have enough brainpower to talk about it!!

first of all, im still sad that opening and ending did not have subtitles on youtube, so i have absolutely no idea what these two tracks were about 😭

second: i’ve understood that even though i’ve thought i was ready for what was ahead, i was not. zongzheng huaien. zongzheng-gongzi. i understand all the circumstances that led to you being like that, but still WHAT was that.

i’ve absolutely loved how li le portrayed him (how was he able to communicate so much with his eyes only!! mr li le im in awe of your power)!! but, after finishing the drama and having time to think about it, i feel like i’ve expected smth else from huaien as a character, and, as a result, i ended up not liking him as much as i thought i would. however! i’ve loved SO much that he ended up just chilling in his position of a wife!! the peak writing for me, tbh. (in addition, im still thinking about him crossdressing in 1-2 episodes… zongzheng-guaning made me feel gender envy for the first time in my life and i wont be able to forget it ever)

third. XIAOBAO. JIN XIAOBAO. he’s really THE character of all time. i ended up loving him and his dynamics with all the characters so much!! i love the character growth!! i love that he’s literally male manipulator (the part where he gave a promise and then said that he lied without a second thought? LOL) to huaien’s malewife vibes (who’s mansplaying in this relationship? i fear that both of them, but they divide topic between each other).

fourth. other characters!! i haven’t thought I would like supporting cast so much!! i’ve ended up crushing on xiaobao’s mother, zhaocai and jinbao and their dynamic with xiaobao was one of the drama’s highlights for me, que siming was an absolute bitch and i loved every second that he was on screen.

fifth. aspects that i haven’t liked in the show: 1) i haven’t read the novel, so it may be explained by that, but god!! i wish so much that there could be more women in this drama 😭 i loved xiaobao’s mother, xiaoyu was a delight, but i can’t help but thinking that it wasn’t enough for me. like please spare a one or two female characters for a simple lesbian,,, 2) i feel like not being ready enough for “toxic” part of “toxic yaoi” somewhat skewed my perception of the drama, and im sad because of that!! because i wanted to love it, i really did, but my favorite parts ended up being eps 1-4 (romcom part) and ep 12 (romance part), so I wasn’t feeling as invested as i could be for almost the half of the drama :(

but!! to sum up everything. im still so glad that i’ve watched myatb, because watching it felt like filling some kind of void in my soul, of which i had no idea before. watching wuxia, seeing all the things that i got used to seeing BUT WITH ADDED QUEER ROMANCE? it felt like a dream, and, tbh, still feels like it. i cant say that myatb is a perfect show, i cant even call it excellent, but it felt like exactly what i had needed. 8/10, it’s perfect in its imperfection.

hoping to see uncensored baihe drama at some point in the future!

p.s. i feel like i’ve forgotten to mention smth else, but well. what can you do

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Help transgender people in Russia

Center-T is looking for benefactors to provide psychological support to transgender people in difficult life situations

if you can, please, consider helping trans people in russia — while being queer here is hard, the law that passed this year that forbids gender reassignment surgery is especially inhumane. when it was possible, i’ve been signed up for regular donations and it’s the best way to support, but even a one-time donation would help a lot.

if any trans people from russia are reading this — sending you support, strength and love (sincerely, a russian lesbian)

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thanks to watching myatb with my sis and her making this experience even more enjoyable and fun, i’m once again thinking how huaibao literately have high school romance vibes. huaien is the new girl in class that moved here to finish the school education and get diploma (his title and etc), and jin xiaobao is just vibing during his last school year not caring at all about adulting, while his parents are going “how will he live as an adult when he’s like that now”.

imagining huaibao in high school makes so much sense to me, because love confessions after knowing each other for a short time only? jealousy like this? promises about forever? of course these two are teenagers, that explains everything

im not even sure if im talking about vibes only or at the same time thinking about modern au. high school sweethearts huaibao are just timeless to me, i guess