5.What was the first time you suspected you were transgender? 8. How would you explain your gender identity to others? 23. What’s your biggest trans-related fear?
5.) This is tricky!! I think it was sophmore year of college, so I was about 19 or 20 when I realized I was actually definitively experiencing something wrong with my body. I was experiencing dysphoria before hand, but I ended up chalking it all up to this huge fabricated lie that took a long time to break down and through. I ended up starting to wonder, in my first wonderings if I was trans, if I was gender fluid or demi-boy or demi-girl. From there it slowly shifted to binary girl, especially as I got more curious about makeup and femme clothing and I learned the vocabulary to describe my discomfort with my gender.
8.) I’d describe myself as a binary trans girl. I’m rather conforming in my gender as embracing typically feminine things makes me feel more euphoric than casting them aside. Honestly, I’d really say too my gender identity tends to be the kind cis people are most exposed to when shown trans people in tv and movies: rather binary and trying to blend in. If... that makes any sense at all XD This question is really hard for me because despite being trans myself I’m not well-versed in describing gender identity. For me, trying to explain why I feel like I do is like trying to explain what the color Red is. It just Is.
23) My biggest fear is health issues everyone keeps murmuring about. I worry about complications, things going wrong, my safety. I feel like a lot of those dangerous murmurings are bunk, but I still do feel at risk from other people too and that’s a big fear that keeps me closeted to a lot of people. I’ve always been a very cautious person and a lot of trans safety and health issues play into that XD
Thank you for the ask!!!! :D
