#mind conflict

[newmandrew]

Съёмка для музыкальной банды: MIND CONFLICT Canon 1V, Agfa APX 400

[sbdm666]

Mind Conflict - Unforced Sacrifice

[falalalalkawildwaves-blog]

I'll travel by plane for the first time in my life ... I'm a bit stressed, everything will be all right ... right? Ahhh I'm scared -_-

[adrianxd-blog]

after all this time, my mind constantly finds it amusing to remind me.

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A Posting About Me

I don't really think I've got the hang of this, but a post is a post is a post right?

Lately the days have been confusing.  Stress from school, family, and of course the life of a hopeless romantic.  I know I can keep on top of school business.  I can keep finances straight.  That's not a problem.  The family business...will become my business sooner, rather than later it seems.  As for my personal life, I'm not sure what it's becoming.

I think I hate myself a tad bit.  I know I have many things to be thankful for, and I don't feel I take them for granted.  I'm just not sure I'm happy with what I've done.  

I think I lost a friend today.  We haven't known each other for a year, and yet we've shared more than a few personal moments together.  But no matter how much I became attached to her, I knew in the end I wouldn't be happy. We haven't been dating since the end of March.  We got close again recently.

Then I went on a date with a girl.

Is it rude to say she made me feel better than my ex? I didn't have to hide who I was or change anything about me around this girl.  I still don't know if this will grow into something better.  I certainly hope so.  

But in the end...my friend(ex) is very upset with me.  She's cut off all social contact with me.  I still want to be her friend.  She always would remind me that we weren't dating anymore.  I'm not sure what's gonna happen next.  I want to be able to justify my actions by saying that "For once I'm gonna think about MY happiness.", but I'm not sure that's the right answer. Or that it was even the right choice.  I'm not sure what to do, so I'd like to hear what you guys think.  

Am I a bad person?