dear mingyu?
dear mingyu.
i know i keep getting in trouble and hurting myself and i know you won’t always be there to patch me up. and i am so fucking terribly sorry for assuming that you always got time for my shit. i’m not actually saying that i expect you to be there - i’m just saying i’m wishing you will. but the world won’t grant every wish i have so i will understand when the day comes and i’m standing outside your house and you won’t let me in. of course, i hope that day isn’t coming anytime soon. i’m sure ( since you’re studying medical shit and whatever ) that you have a slight perception of the effects of using drugs. i won’t lie, i’ve tried it. and it’s kind of a nice feeling. your body goes numb for a moment and you feel like you’re in the best place ever. it’s just silence, calming and soothing away all the problems in your life. please don’t tell my mother i did drugs- she’ll fucking kill me. but anyways. the drugs. i get the same kind of satisfying calm feeling when i spend time with you. when you’re completely quiet on my couch and i’m upside down playing video games. you truly are one of the best friends i’ve had and i’ve learned from you that helping others is important. i am sorry that i don’t do as much for you as you do for me. maybe one day i’ll make it up to you. maybe. until then, please don’t go.












