Acrophobia... (Sickfic)
Trigger warnings: emeto, acrophobia, swearing
Sickie: Minho
Caretaker/Comforter: Changbin, Hyunjin, Chan
This will be really, really short again, but I hope you'll like it XD
Minho hates being far away from the ground. He is literally scared of it. Well too dumb that he is stubborn too...
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Dumb. That was how Lee Know felt. Absolutly dumb. Why did he volunteer for this damn shit? Every member said that they could do it. Like really everyone. But no, Minho had the idea to take the part in the song, that was played at a fucking 10 meter house!
Minho groaned and went out of his bed. His watch said 5:10am. There was a 100% chance he would see his only hyung downstairs, a 50% chance that he just came from the studios and a 50% chance that he was up already. With that he brought his mind in a different direction of thinking: being worried about Chan's sleep wasn't the best thought of distraction, but way better than thinking about dancing and singing on a 10 meter building. Only by thinking about that fact, he felt nauseous.
When he wallked downstairs, he already heard someone, who was clearly cleaning the kitchen. So he would have to talk with Chan. Great. Of course he loved their leader with his whole heart, but in the morning (and especially that early) the eldest was a bit much for someone who preffered sleeping over early mornings.
As expected, Chan was in the kitchen. He seemed to sort the cutlery? Minho didn't question that behavior and went straight to the coffee machine. "Oi, Minho, why are you awake already? The shootng for the music video starts at 2pm!" "My question would be: are you already awake or still awake and if that is the case: when do you mind going to sleep?" the dancer contered and started to make his coffee. "Welllllll, let's say I didn't plan to sleep...?" his hyung answered asked and earned a Minho-glare with eye rolling.
Both of them set down on the kitchen table. "Minho? Are you really fine with dancing on that building? You can still say that I shall do the part, I know the lyrics and dance moves, Changbin and Hyunjin too" "No, I'm fine. I won't fight my fear with running away from it" it sounded more like an attack he realized, so he added "I just don't want to run away from it anymore. You all always face your fears and I really have to learn that" his hyung didn't look convinced but smiled warmly at him. "Okay, just say if it gets too much" with that he stood up and went upstairs.
Lee Know sat at the table for a while until he decided he would make himself a little breakfast. He knew that he could get nauseous or even sick at the building, but it didn't hurt that much when there wasn't only bile and stomach acid to throw up.
This thoughts should have turned his alarm on. And they did. But he ignored it. And oh, that wasn't a good decision.
(A little break, I feel like the world is ending in Germany right now, it's raining like wtf it sounds like, I don't know how to describe it, but yk what I mean?!?)
Around 10am the whole Stray Kids gang was at the shooting point. They were way too early, but so they had time to look around at the set, to practice and to get ready. Only the look at the building he had to stand on made Minho's stomach churn. He felt his breakfast moving around and felt like he was going to vomit.
But he just ignored it. Pushing things away alway helped. Except with his members. And fear. But those things were different. No matter how annoying Han was, how angry Changbin or how clingy Chan-hyung was: he loved all of them unconditionally. But fear? He really wanted that feeling to go away. There was nothing to be afraid of!
"Hey Lee Know, are you okay?" Changbin just appeared in front of him, what made him jump a bit. "Oh my gosh, Changbin! You don't have to give me a heart-attack!" "Sorry, you just look so pale. If you're not feeling well, we can make the video at a different day. I can ask Chan to-" "No, it's fine, I'm good" Minho didn't mean to snap on the younger member. He really didn't mean to sound rude but he couldn't help it. The tension in his body went into his voice and he couldn't control it. Changbin looked a bit stunned at Minho then just shrugged and walked away.
The dancer massaged his temples as Chan called the members together for the last final 'talk-round' how they called it. "Okay, we'll start with the group parts first and then we'll just see who wants to do next, just like always, okay?" the others nodded. "Everyone knows what he has to do and where?" nodding again. "Okay. Remember it's okay to make mistakes and that we have time. Don't stress yourself" "Says the right person, Channie-hyung" said Felix who earned laughter from everyone except Minho and Chan. Chan just rolled his eyes on the younger Aussie, but Minho was too focused on not being sick.
The first parts went very well, they only had to film one track twice, because Seungmin accidentally danced the wrong, but that was the only thing that happened.
After they finished recording the parts in which more than one person was seen, they decided who would be the next. the list looked like this in the end: first was Seungmin, followed by Hyunjin, Felix, I.N, Han, Changbin, Minho and as always on the end Chan.
Minho was kinda glad that Chan was at the end. Chan's part wasn't the easiest in general but if you knew how the moves were, it was easy to dance them, so if he had to change the parts, h could just take over Chan's part. But that won't happen! he said to himself, while watching the others dance.
Chan must have seen that Minho looked pale, so he said that the others were allowed to go. Everyone blinked confused but accepted that untypical decision. Soon only Changbin (who refused to go back to the dorm), Chan and Minho were left. "Lee Know, you ready? Or shall we swap parts?" "No, I'm fine" And with that Minho walked towards the building.
His knees wobbeled, when he started walking up the stairs. As soon as he was standing on the flat roof, he tried his hardest to not look down.
Lee Know swallowed. He felt like his throat tightened. Breathe, just breathe Minho "Aaand action!" and Minho jumped in action. But not in the action the camera men wanted him.
As soon as Minho walked closer to the end of the roof, his stomach flipped. He couldn't do this. He just couldn't! His stomach flipped again and he felt something coming up his throat.
The dancer turned on his heel and ran as fast as he could, back to the door he just came from. He heard how the door slammed behind him and that the door downstairs was opened. But he didn't have time to think about who opened the door in front of him, he just needed to come to the restroom as fast as possible. While Lee Know ran to the spot where the restrooms where, he pressed his hands in front of his mouth.
As soon as he reached the restroom, he kneeled down in front of one of the toilets. Before he could even catch his breath, a gag brought up the bit of breakfast he had eaten. That happened at the same time he tried to take a deep breathe, what sent him coughing over the toilet.
While he still gagged a hand started to rub slow circels on his back. When another way of vomit made it's way up his throat he felt how frustrated tears started to fall from his cheeks into the toilet, where they mixed up with bile and stomach acid.
After a while Lee Know only brought bile up and at some point only dry gagging. "Sshhh Minho-ah, there is nothing left in you. Try to take deep breaths and relax a bit. I know it's hard, but you can do it, I know that." his leader comforted him until he leaned back.
But as soon as Chan had calmed Minho down, the dancer started to sob violantely into his hyung's shoulder. "I-I'm so so SO sorry hyung! I schould've... should've known I couldn't do this! That I'm too-too weak for it!" Chan, who was completly stunned by Minho's sudden outburst, just hugged the younger tight. "Hey, hey Minho-ah, look at me. You aren't weak, okay? You are one of the strongest persons I know! You tried, that is all that matters. We will just swap our parts and then you'll dance mine, is that fine?" Minho nodded, his head still burried in Chan's shoulder.
A few minutes later, the bathroom door opened again and Hyunjin came in. "Can I help with something? Binnie wanted to go to bring you some water." "Maybe you could stay with Lee Know, while I talk to the manager?" "Sure no problem"
After Chan got replaced by Hyunjin, he walked to their manager. Hyunjin started to play with Minho's damp hair. "You better?" he asked and Lee Know nodded. "Thanks for staying here. I feel better now, we can go back" "Are you sure?" another voice asked. Changbin kneeled down next to thee dancers and gave the older one a bottle of water. Minho accepted it graduatly. "Yeah, it was just part of a panic attack"
With the support of Hyunjin and Changbin he walked back to the managers. They watched Chan doing his part and after that Minho felt good enough to perform the part Chan did in original. But it was okay like that and he definitely learned his lesson to listen to his body.
END
That's it! After writing nearly everything, my computer deleted chrome and I had to start again, I was nearly ready with the new one, only to find this one in some file burried between too many pictures, but I got the old one back :DDD. This one isn't that short and new ideas are welcome <3
And thanks @eternal-stay for the picture-help XD