Testing the waters for what people have to say about my precanon miserable Perpetua fanfic so
Here’s the rundown of random shit that’s gonna happen in it
- there will be religious trauma. It’s the religious trauma game idk what to tell you
- Perpetua is gay and does not realize it. She has a crush on Crisanta and mistakenly identifies it as literally anything other than a crush because she has had absolutely no strong female relationships in her life
- the aforementioned point isn’t totally because of internalized homophobia but it’s more like just the institutional erasure of the concept of gayness from Custodia to the point that it doesn’t ever naturally occur to her
- horror. There is horror. And also there is horror pertaining to the Miracle being homophobic
- on that same note, there is gore
- need to make it clear that the crush is not healthy and the age gap and the power gap are both way too big (in this particular fic with these particular interpretations of the characters) and the fic is a commentary on how a society as oppressive and restrictive as Custodia’s harms people’s abilities to conceptualize the healthy relationships that they need to live
- on that same note, Perpetua’s love is unrequited
- on THAT same note, Crisanta is going through her own shit. Mainly living with the fact that the Miracle reshaped her on a physiological level
- Perpetua still dies but I haven’t figured out how yet and I am open to ideas
- also Esdras is aroace in this bc idk I felt like it
- also Esdras is buddies with Socorro because I felt like it
- there are suggestive bits
Q: do you have religious trauma
Q: why are you being so mean to Perpetua
A: relatively healthy outlet/self-exploration for my own experiences as a practicing queer religious person and also somebody who has a lot of guilt issues
Q: are you a bitch about your headcanons
A: no I’m pretty chill about most interpretations of the characters that don’t wildly contradict what little can be inferred from the canon. This work in particular is just inspired by a combination of my own feelings, self indulgences, and personal preferences for interpretations/extrapolations on the canon
Q: do you doom all your gays
A: up to interpretation I just like miserable shit and gay shit so they collaborate frequently in my work
A: no I don’t fw toxic yuri 😞 I don’t have it in me to make girls love girls that are mean to them it makes me sad. Don’t ask why doomed yuri doesn’t make me as sad. I contain multitudes