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It’s dark, the wind blows. I open my window but there is no breeze, just more glass behind the glass. It’s late, and I desperately want to sleep, but I know I can’t. So I’ll lay here, plugged into the sounds that my computer generates. Hoping for some new inspiration, or maybe just some different sensations. I’ll turn my eye from the mirror on my door, and on my wall. The screaming facing of those inside hold no interest for me tonight. I’ll be up again in a few short hours, hopefully feeling less morose. I feel my muse coming back tonight. If only it holds over into tomorrow, that will be a true blessing. It’s only been dry a day or so, but I’m already wishing the rain would come back. So for tonight I’ll just look at the ceiling, with posters plastered all over of bands now long past. Concerts I’ve never been to full of people I’ve never met, yet the memories are clear in my head.
But still, I’ll lay here, and think of the only thing that never fails to make me smile these days. My little kitten that steals my sleep, shows up in my dreams. She takes it all without even trying, and I give it to her gladly. She captivates my waking mind, just as much as she glides into my unconscious desires. Taking everything, I don’t have to think, It’s as natural as breathing. So as I lie here, waiting for the dawn, back to all the brightness, and everything I hate, I smile. A smile that can’t hide, that resides behind my eyes.