I think my followers bounce around 50ish, and the 6 or so that actually reblogged regularly might have heard this once or twice. But now I am going to get into a better detail maybe show some love.
I gave up last spring, about halfway through senior work in college. I decided at that point there was no reason for me to plan ahead. The love I once felt for my craft was drained out by years of being told my motivations weren’t correct. This led to my life plummeting and loss of all self confidence. I eventually became self destructive. Taking place in nothing illegal but did all I could to make my outside mirror the way the inside felt.
While in this stupor I had friends who became closer and eventually become the people I would live with. Among them was a petite little sweetheart that seemed to never talk. I have caught her looking at me, and I stared quite a few times myself. Eventually I planned on making my move on her. So we started to chat and talk, leading to cuddling. but neither of us wanted the group to find out for some unknown reason, so we started to split up in the morning and meet up later, We soon wen to more physical activities which we both promised this wasn’t going to be serious or attached.
We had to go see our respective families at that time. I went out to the void. she went twice as far away. We chatted and talked like friends do. Fourth of July hits, she is lamenting the curse of neighboring rednecks. I spent time with family than met up with friends. we drank a little blew some stuff up but the highlight of the night was two particular films. One was a version of Edger Allen Poe’s the Raven that is impossible to find. It is so unbearable bad that mankind has shunned it. The other film is A Winter’s Tale. It came out earlier that year and was advertised as some sort of immortal love story. It is actually about reincarnated pedophilia and crazy Will Smith Satan.While watching this I texted the girl nonstop.
While chatting, she brought up that she had grown attached, and I admitted too that I was a little too fond of her. She threw down the question. She asked if we were going to become a couple. and so we did. It has been a year today and I couldn’t be happier.
I love you, cause I know you are reading this.