Attempt
Attempt #1
Title: Attempt #1
Genre: Fluff
Pairing: Suga x Reader
Word Count: 2451
Staring at your phone in confusion, you waited for the elevator to reach the floor you needed as the message stared brightly back at you. ‘Change of plans, we’re busy for the next week. See you then.'’
What was that even supposed to mean? You knew for a fact that it couldn’t be right. Jungkook had mentioned to you earlier that they had the rest of the week off to relax. Why was Yoongi lying to you? Especially this close to Christmas.
At the ding of the elevator, you slipped your phone into your pocket and stepped out into the hall. With determined steps, you made your way down to your destination with one thing as your goal. You were going to get an answer from Yoongi on what was going on.
With three quick precise knocks on their door, you waited patiently. You could hear loud noises coming from behind the door. It sounded like a mixture of yelling and scrambles of music playing. When no one answered, you knocked even harder on the door. This time your pounds were heard as you heard the sound of the lock being messed with.
“I swear to all that’s good if you don’t stop-” Namjoon was yelling into the apartment as he opened the door, but stopped when he saw you on the other side. “Y/N! What are you doing here?” He asked you with a panic to his voice.
“I need to see Yoongi.” You blatantly told him as you went to step into the apartment. But you were blocked off immediately.
“Hyung isn’t here.” Namjoon said quickly. A little too quickly for your liking as you watched him closely. You weren’t sure if he was lying to you or not.
“Hyuuuung,” Jungkook whined as he came up to the door. “Can you tell him to knock it off? He’s being way too loud… I swear only Yoongi is allowed to-Noona! What are you doing here?!"
Raising a questioning eyebrow at Namjoon, you quietly asked him why he was lying to you. "I’m here to see your noisemaker I take it, but Namjoon here was just telling me he wasn’t here. Now why would you be lying to me?"
"Now really isn’t the right time Y/N…. He’s not listening to anyone and has demanded that you can’t see him.” Namjoon sighed at you in defeat.
Pursing your lips in irritation you pushed the door wide open and bullied your way into the apartment. “He doesn’t want to see me when he was the one who made plans with me huh? He can tell me himself rather than through you or a text message.” You snapped as you barreled through the apartment towards Yoongi’s room.
You were so focused on setting things straight that you didn’t even realize that Jimin had stepped into your way until you had pushed him out of the way. “Noona!” Jimin whined at you. “What was that for?!"
"Not now Jimin!” You snapped at him, sending a glare in your direction. He shut up immediately and disappeared where he wouldn’t be in your line of sight.
“Yoongi!” You yelled as you tried to open his door. The door didn’t budge. He had actually locked you out. “Min Yoongi! What is this? You’re lying to me now?”
“Go away Y/N! I don’t want to see you right now!” He yelled back, but you were barely able to make out what he said under the mass amount of noise coming from his room.
“Turn off that god awful racket and come out and talk to me! Explain why you’re lying to me!” You yelled back at him as you pounded on his door. It rattled under your pounds, but wouldn’t budge open. You gave it a quick kick in frustration as the door remained closed before you.
“No! Get out of my house! I told you I don’t want to see you Y/N!” Yoongi snapped at you angrily. The anger in his voice made you freeze. Never once had he spoken to you with such anger. Biting your lip, you tried to fight back the sudden tears that threatened to spill against your cheeks.
"I…. I just wanted to know what was wrong…“ You muttered knowing that you couldn’t be heard. Stepping back away from his door, you slunk away defeated.
"N-Noona… You’re crying…” Jungkook said as you walked by him. You furiously wiped the tears away trying to get them to stop.
“T-Tell… T-Tell him I said fine. I’ll leave him alone. I guess this is the end of us….” You gulped as fresh tears started to pour down your cheeks. You pushed past Jungkook and left their apartment.
At the end of the hall you impatiently pressed the down button for the elevator as the tears refused to stop. Just as the doors opened, you heard your name called out in a panic behind you. Recognizing his voice, you tucked your head down and stepped onto the elevator refusing to look at him. You didn’t want him to know that he had actually made you cry.
Through the fringe of your bangs you could see him quickly making his way down the hall towards you. It only made you push the close door button furiously wishing that it would close faster. You let out a sigh of relief as the doors closed. Just as they were about to close you looked up, barely catching a glimpse of Yoongi’s anguished expression.
You knew he had seen your tear streaked face just as the doors closed.
Watching the numbers slowly count down to the bottom floor, you kept your thoughts blank as you slowly calmed yourself down. You composed yourself to be able to face him just in case. As you reached the bottom floor, you held yourself straight, ready to face him. You couldn’t keep the disappointment from striking through you as the doors opened to reveal that he wasn’t on the other side.
Silently you beat yourself up about how stupid you were. Of course he wouldn’t be on the other side. Your life wasn’t some stupid romance where your lover would run down the stairs to try and reach you before you left.
A sigh escaped your lips as you tightened your jacket and scarf around you to help protect you against the chilly night air as you went to push the doors open. A mixture of feelings rushed through you as you pushed out with the rush of cold air blowing around you. You wrapped your arms tighter around you to try and keep as much warmth to yourself as possible.
Suddenly, you were tugged into the ally way. A scream of surprise escaped your lips as you tried to fend off your attacker. Raising your fist, you put all of your strength behind it as you attacked back.
“Damn it Y/N….” Yoongi’s voice snapped in irritation as you managed to land a punch on his jaw. “What was that for?"
"Y-Yoongi!” You gasped out in surprise as you covered your mouth. A quick glance told you he wasn’t that hurt, but he was standing outside in cold weather without a jacket or socks and shoes. Frowning at him, you lowered your arms to your sides. “What are you doing out here without anything on? Are you trying to catch your death?"
"No, I’m not. I didn’t have time because someone decided they wanted to avoid me as I rushed after them.” Yoongi simply told you bluntly as he stared at you as if it were obviously for that reason.
“What do you even want?” You huffed at him in irritation. “I thought didn’t want to see me anymore…."
"What is even going on…” He sighed at you as he rubbed his face as if trying to figure out what to say next. He was trying to hide it from you, but you noticed that there was a small shake to him as he shivered from the cold air.
“Go inside Yoongi… I won’t bug you anymore. Obviously you don’t want to be with me any longer. I’ll go.” You told him, your voice filled with complete defeat.
“Ahh~ That’s what it is!” Yoongi exclaimed as if he finally understood something you didn’t. “You completely misunderstood what I said. No wonder Taehyung was freaking out over the thought of you crying. Both he and Jungkook are blaming me for making you cry now."
Rage fueled through your body as you stared back at him in complete disbelief. "I completely misunderstood you? What was there to misunderstand when you told me you didn’t want to see me anymore?” You snapped at him.
A chuckle escaped from his lips as he stepped closer to you, which you immediately stepped back away from him. You weren’t going to let your guard down, not now. “That’s not what I said Y/N… I said I didn’t want to see you right now."
"How come?” You couldn’t help but ask as your rage slowly slipped away into confusion.
“I was working on something for you… Trying to make sure that it was perfect before I showed you….” He explained as he rubbed the back of his head sheepishly. “I guess I could have worded what I said a little better.” His dark eyes twinkled at you, waiting for you to say something to him.
Sighing you stepped forward, making sure to keep your head down until it landed against his chest. Burying your face against him, you muttered, “Stupid… You didn’t have to freak me out like that."
"I really didn’t mean to do that.” He softly stated as he wrapped his arms around your body, pulling you closer to him. You could still feel him shake against you, but it seemed to let up just a little bit. He placed a kiss against the side of your head, making you bury your face deeper into his chest in embarrassment.
“You really need to go back inside… Your manager is going to kill me if you get sick for following me out here.” You told him as you pushed away from him. “I don’t even want to think of what your fans will do to me…"
"Come back inside with me.” Yoongi demanded in a serious tone. “I’ll show you what I was working on."
"I thought you wanted it to be perfect before you did.” You whispered as your heart sped up a little bit in anticipation. Was he really going to show you what he was working on before he was satisfied with it?
“It’ll be perfect because you’ll be there.” He said cheesily with a slight shrug of his shoulder. “Besides, perhaps you can give me your opinion on my racket of noise. The guys say it’s nothing but noise, but I think it may say what I want it to.”
"Fine, show me the way.“ You told him as you held your had out to him. His fingers engulfed your hand in warmth as he tugged you through the way he came back towards his apartment.
You kept your eyes on him as he gently tugged you through the hallways and towards the elevator. Neither of you spoke as the two of you rode upwards. Your gaze never once left him the whole time. You saw the looks of surprise from the other members as you were brought to Yoongi’s room. All of his music stuff was on and strewn all over the room.
You slowly sat down on the edge of his bed, as he went to working on being able to show you. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw that the other six were cautiously peeking into the room, curious as to know what was going on. And to how you were going to react to it.
As if he didn’t see them hovering there in the doorway, Yoongi flashed you a quick nervous smile. That wasn’t normal. What would make him nervous?
Soon music started to flow through the speakers. Your eyes quickly became captivated by the sight of Yoongi in front of you. It was like all of his nervousness melted away, only leaving behind that familiar sight of confidence that he got while on stage.
But this confidence was different. This type was fueled by something else besides his stage persona.
His eyes locked onto your eyes, sparkling as he began to let the words spill out of his mouth.
You didn’t have to listen to the words at all, you could feel what he was trying to relay to you. The message wasn’t a blatantly obvious one.
It wasn’t spoken by his words, but by the way he rapped, the way he let the words come out quickly and smoothly at the same time. His words wrapped around you as if they were trying to embrace you. You felt exactly how he felt for you and what his wishes were for the future between you two even though his words were never once obvious about it.
As he finished up his verses, you could tell that he knew you heard him without a problem. Tears silently streaked down your cheeks as the silence extended between the two of you.
"Hyuuung, you made her cry again!” Taehyung’s voice broke through your silence in a panic. A small chuckle escaped your lips as you quickly wiped the tears away.
"It’s okay Tae. They’re good tears, not bad ones. I heard him completely.“ You said as you tried to defuse the situation before it got out of hand.
"How did you hear him completely? The rap is a complete mess of nonsense and noise….” Jimin pointed out as he stared at the two of you in disbelief. Namjoon and Hoseuk quickly shared a now complete knowing look between the two of them before they pushed the three youngest males away from the room.
Soon you were left completely alone with Yoongi.
“Did… Did you really get everything I was trying to say?” He asked almost too quietly for you to hear.
Smiling sweetly at him, you stood up and closed the distance between the two of you. Your arms wrapped around his waist as you lifted your head up to stare directly in his eyes. Leaning up on your tip toes, you slightly brushed your lips against his teasingly.
“Of couse I did Yoongi.” You whispered against his lips. Pressing your lips against his, you broke any barriers that held you back. Leaning back, you stared directly into his eyes which you could see were waiting for a response from you.
“I love you too.”
Annnnnd there’s that. Quick side story really quick. A long, long, long, long, looooong time ago, I used to write fanfiction on livejournal… Yes, me. It’s been almost five years since I left it. Never thought I would return or even attempt any of this again…. But here I am! This is my first fic since stopping… So yaaay! Hope you guys enjoy it. I’m going to go bury myself away now….