sets my url down and rolls away
TO SPREAD POSITIVITY.
HONESTLY, my first thought when I think of you is “mom friend” and cute kitties and TsumTsum and Fire Emblem and dumb mornings kicking myself awake to talk to you about anything and everything, whether it’s YouTube gamers or our dumb muses (mainly my dumb muse, because, c’mon, Aku’s cute but an idiot a lot of the time) or life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness – it’s really amazing for me to think like “holy shit like two years ago I could not dream of talking to this person.”
Because I still remember, two years ago, back when I had my own Makoto blog, just sitting and admiring you on my dash. Back then, you seemed like some super cool and amazing person, and I was super shy and couldn’t approach you for shit?? And it’s so crazy to imagine that now, two years later, here I am talking to this same person that I so deeply admired (not gonna lie, of all the people I looked up to two summers ago, you were literally the “top” the super senpai, the one I admired the most, so this is kinda crazy in retrospect?)
And I’m honestly super grateful to Leel for sticking us together in – I think it was a BGO game? Holy shit my memory sucks sometimes – because now I can’t imagine not having you in my life. I’m so used to just waking up and having my immediate first thought be “holy fuck, what time is it? Did I wake up too late to talk to Rayne?” It’s just… part of my schedule by this point: wake up, talk to Rayne, maybe finally pry myself from the warm embrace of my bed to eat “breakfast” at noon. (Because honestly, fuck timezones. I’m going to take every chance I can to talk with you.)
It’s almost hard to believe that in the span of a few short months I went from being really super shy and still looking up to you like you were some kinda ?? mythical being? to being able to talk with you about so many things from like? dumb things to happy things to serious things to?? I don’t even know what. But it’s so easy for me to go and talk to you about anything that’s on my mind – especially things bugging me, because you are Literal Mom Friend and??? You always make me feel so comfortable and safe and loved no matter what and I’m really thankful for that – and I’m really happy when I’m able to listen to the things you have to say too. Cause like your presence is really just so wonderful in my life and makes me really happy (and here I go into “how the fuck do word” honestly), and you never fail to cheer me up when I’m feeling down, so I’m honestly really happy to be able to help you out too when you need it.
I honestly cannot describe in words how thankful I am to have you in my life. You’re sweet, you’re loving, you’re thoughtful, and honestly you’ve genuinely got the same kinda warm and gentle presence I’d expect from a mom (even if you’re still a cute, silly nerd). Whether we’re talking about like our muses or Serious Stuff™, you still always make me feel really calm and quiet and peaceful and loved, and I’m just honestly so??? happy that you’re in my life. I’m glad that I got to meet you, and talk with you, and befriend you. Thank you for being in my life. I hope you’ll keep being in it for a long time.
