I fucking love yonic art ok. fuck phallic art I’ve seen enough of it to last several life times. I don’t want to see anymore dick art just pussy art. give!!! me!!! that!!! yonic!!! shit!!!
so i made an eye doctor appointment about a week ago bcuz i realized i was having trouble seeing the board in my math class. i went to the appointment a couple hours ago, it was my first eye exam ever & it turns out i have to get glasses which i sort of expected. i lost my bragging rights as the last person in my family without glasses but whatever
anyway, my doctor dilated my eyes & after looking in them he asked me if i ever get headaches, i said ‘yes sometimes’ bcuz i really do get headaches kinda often, at least twice/thrice a week. then he told me that my optic nerve is kind of elevated which means there’s something causing pressure behind my eyes & that he’s referring me to a specialist to get it further checked out
i looked up the condition that he wrote down on the doctor’s note (it’s called like papilledema or something) & now im really scared bcuz it could be serious?? i mean he said it could be nothing but that it also could be something & im anxious as hell
Since I now have permission (lol) to talk about this, I've had this one in the chamber for a bit. A couple weeks back, I was talking to a friend re how my vague hand gesture everything works, and the analogy I usually use is one of a twitch streamer. So, I wanted to put it here for the sake of explaining things to folks later (and also just bc i've been told it is interesting).
I don't have One Specific Host. So, in this analogy, the person/people "in control" at any given time is the streamer. They're more or less in charge of the stream while they're "online". (But, like, if you logged into twitch to watch your favorite channel and the streamer was different every stream.)
Maybe they have folks they collab with on a regular basis, who also have some (limited) control over how things work (ie. they can influence the happenings of the stream, but aren't necessarily in complete control).
Then you have chat. Chat consists of several people, which are individuals with their own goals and dreams and desires--but realistically, how many of any given streamer's chatters do they recognize? The ones who have been there from the beginning? Their mods? The ones who have made the most/biggest donations? Folks they frequently collab with?
But the streamer can still see the messages chat sends, and even if they don't necessarily recognize a chatter's name or know anything about them, the streamer still can/will respond to them, and can (usually) think of them fondly.
Chat can also be controlled to an extent by designated moderators. Chatters who backseat too much, who try to spoil things (share trauma) the streamer hasn't gotten to yet, who harass other chatters, etc--they're going to get timed out. But that doesn't, like, stop the person from existing, or from being able to see the stream. They just can't type in chat until the timeout is over, or unless they make an appeal to moderation that is approved.
And sometimes chat can influence the stream--things like hydrate reminders, or donations that read messages out loud, or in more involved (fuzzy) cases, things like Twitch Plays Pokémon. Maybe sometimes the streamer has a community day and does group activities. Sometimes moderators are allowed to control the stream to some extent--like those streamers who let their mods control their StreamElements and such.
Anyways--all of this is context for a silly little comic I made regarding my Loop fictive (A rarity! I don't typically develop fictives. Considering that the last 6 months have been some of the worst of my life, though, I am far from surprised), named Txirimiri (Miri for short)(Also unusual, as I don't have many headmates with actual names), where they are the cat that I put on my desk to entertain chat while I go to the bathroom (because chat LOVES Miri), added below the cut.
