#misc: reference

[ladyjaneasher-blog]

robert fraser & peter blake, 1967

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conversations with mccartney, paul du noyer

[ladyjaneasher-blog]

Immediately after the breakup of the Beatles I felt, What am I going to do? I needed at least a month to think a bit. I went into a period of what everyone called being a recluse, a hermit in isolation. All sorts of little snide articles appeared saying: 'He's sitting up in Scotland, looking into his mirror, admiring his image.' It was not at all true. I was just planting trees. I was just getting normal again, and giving myself time to think. I never used to understand when they used to say, 'What are you going to do when the bubble bursts?' A joke question, and we always used to say 'Ha, ha, we'll burst with it.' I never once took that question in.

paul mccartney: many years from now, barry miles

[ladyjaneasher-blog]

heydullblog.com has the most amazing meta discussions. i need to preserve this comment about paul, his mother and the topic of grief on my blog because it raises some really excellent points:

Michael, I would disagree that Paul really grew past the trauma of his mother’s death, or at least not for a long time. By his own admission, it wasn’t until the catastrophic trauma of Linda’s death that he was forced to grieve properly for his mother, and she’s certainly been on his mind a lot since then. For the first several decades of his career, Paul barely mentioned his mothers in interviews (or seemingly in private, to friends or acquaintances) but that’s been the case the past 15 years or so. The man who wrote the New Yorker profile on Paul, for example, said he mentioned his mum in their conversations as often as the Beatles, and he’s mentioned her a couple of times in his fansite q&A’s (for example, if he could time travel anywhere, it would be to go back and spend time with her). Especially in his 20’s, Paul constantly seemed to be attaching himself to older women or mothers of his girlfriends, looking for that maternal connection.

We can see the way the handling of his mother’s illness and death affected Paul, IMO, in the ways he handled death and even conflict throughout most of his adult life. He knew his mother was ill, but was not told with what, even when he visited her in hospital. Then suddenly, she was dead, and he still wasn’t told why (imagine not knowing your parent’s cause of death – awful). He had no closure of a funeral nor even (according to Mike) were they told where their mother was buried. For some time afterward, Paul and Mike were taken from their home and separated from their only parent to live with relatives. Every single thing about that is the exact opposite of how to healthily handle death with children. Suddenly and without explanation, Paul did lose a loving, constant presence in his life, his main caretaker and the main financial provider, and the message he received from society (and even family) was to bottle it inside, not to inconvenience others with his emotions. John let his grief out for everyone to see, but Paul got the message as a child that when his entire world was turned upside down, it didn’t matter to anyone else.

I’m not into comparing traumas either, though certainly Beatles biographers are. John and Paul’s mothers’ deaths were both awful for them, but different kinds of awful. John’s grief was, in many ways, around a relationship that never was. Julia had always been the flighty aunt, while his actual aunt was his parent. While Julia was still alive, I think John could somehow convince himself that her original abandonment was not that bad, but her death brought it all to the forefront. Yet even had she lived and they had a great relationship, Julia was never going to be a mother to John. You can’t rewind time and make up what a child lost as an adult. But at the same time, when Julia died, John did not lose the person who had cared for him when he was sick, who made his meals, who tucked him in at night, who gave him financial stability. That was Mimi.

I think many biographers also either willfully ignore (or don’t care) about another significant difference in John and Paul’s experiences: their ages. There is a huge difference between loss at the age of 14 (Paul) and loss three months before you turn 18 (John). Paul was a child, and John was not. Children have different psychological reactions to loss and grief. At Paul’s age, adolescents are just beginning to figure out their own boundaries and independence, but also still have one foot in childhood. They often start to have healthy conflicts with their parents, but if their parent dies in the midst of that, the child can spiral into guilt. Every minor transgression suddenly becomes a major thing. Paul once made fun of his mother’s pronunciation of a word, something that I’m sure (if we were able to ask her) she either forget or would brush off as a completely forgettable thing. But Paul spent DECADES remembering and mentioning that incident, and how he wish he could go and take it back. No child is perfect – and certainly no 14 year old is – but not every child then has their parent basically vanish overnight forever. Most of us have a chance to grow up, laugh later with our parents about the rockiness of our teen years, and dumb incidents like that.

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[bproject-imagines]

⃛ヾ(๑❛ ▿ ◠๑ ) speaking of birthdays, mod akane here to deliver you a complete list in case you were wondering so you can mark up your calendars~ ♥

January: 

- Tatsuhiro Nome (11th)  - Mikado Sekiumura (25th)

February: 

- Kazuna Masunaga (23rd)

March: 

- Tomohisa Kitakado (29th) 

April: 

- Haruhi and Yuzuki Teramitsu (9th)

May:

- Hikaru Osari (9th)  - Miroku Shingari (16th)

July: 

- Goushi Kaneshiro (4th) 

August:

- Kento Aizome (30th)

September: 

- Momotaro Onzai (22nd)

October: 

- Akane Fudo (30th)

November: 

- Ryuji Korekuni (11th)

December: 

- Yuta Ashu (24th)

[galedekarios]

I notice you reblog a lot of noir and older films. Do you have any favorites? I've been wanting to try a few but I'm not sure where to start.

Thank you so much for your question. I hope you don’t mind if I publish this, just in case anyone else wants to start getting into Noir movies, which are singular and unique and my absolute favourite.

I’m trying to limit myself here, but to begin I’d recommend the following:

Night of the Hunter (1959)

The cinematography is so amazing, even by today’s standards and beats many modern movies by a landslide. The plot is very intriguing too, and takes a look at what is good and what is evil. 

SUNSET BLVD (1950)

Again, this movie has some beautifully shot scenes in it and some of the best one-liners. It manages to be dramatic yet funny and witty. It’s a perfect combination. Also, Gloria Swanson’s performance is top-notch.

Strangers On A Train (1951)

Strangers On A Train is the first Hitchcock movie I watched and it’s always stayed with me. I think this movie is/was very underrated. It’s one of the best suspense-building movies, and it tells the plot fantastically.

Double Indemnity (1944)

Double Indemnity is a classic Noir and it is classic for good reason. 

The Big Sleep (1946)

The amazing chemistry between Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall alone make this movie worth watching, but the story of a hard-boiled detective is gripping as well.

The Third Man (1949)

Again, a movie with stunning cinematography. If you are into black and white movies, this is absolutely a movie you must see. It’s also one of the few Noir movies made and set in Europe.

I also extremely recommend checking out this list here. It’s a list of Noir movies that you can watch online for free and there are many, many good ones on it.

P.S.: It’s technically a neo-Noir movie, but it’s one of the best movies I have ever seen:

L.A. Confidentíal (1997)

The plot twists and turns and I still discover new things. Another plus is that L.A. Noire was, apparently, based on this film and I loved that game.

[bettingonlongshots]

In case anyone was curious about my Otium characters’ twitter handles, here they are.

Jesse: @yorkeinks

Wren: @penrose

Charlie: @bonesafied

Evie: @bippityboppitybobbin

Jude: @letitoutletitin

Mikey: @quidditchbarbie

Rhys: @whistles

Luka: @lostboylukas

Also, if anyone decides they want to give fake tweets a try and they don’t know how to, use this site! :) Feel free to send me more prompts for the meme whenever!

[boneforts]

Can you tell us about your tattoo in more detail? A Hannibal heart sounds awesome but kinda vague. Excited for you!

basically the entire idea stems from a quote in red dragon

remarkable boy, i do admire your courage. i think i’ll eat your heart

in my original plan for it, it had the quote itself incorporated but i think it’d be too busy? like the quote would detract from the heart, but yeah

the entire tattoo is gonna be probably 6x6 on my inner right bicep, with the heart being photorealistic with a bite taken out of it, and a knife and fork crossed behind it :-) i’ve left the design of the silverware almost completely up to my artist, since i’m looking for semi decorative and tasteful but still very hannibal esque y’know? we haven’t discussed what’s gonna be in the background, if it’s just gona be plain of if there’s gonna be like faded color in the background or w/e one of the artists at the shop thought that tying something else in, like a folded napkin or something, would make it cooler so that might be invovled later

aaaaaa i’m pumped uwu