July 11, 2018...
I keep seeing all of these post on my facebook timeline of new mothers and pregnant mommas, bottle advertisements, free baby stuff..this shit hurts so bad to know that what I wanted so much, i couldnt keep. I know my neighbors think im crazy cause when i start thinking about him/her i start crying and screaming...i dont have nobody to talk to about this cause everybody has their own life..i think i need a psychiatrist...anyway..i started my new job this Monday and yesterday Razo came there for a interview and we gave each other the biggest hug..and then she rubbed my belly where my baby used to be and i couldnt do anything except for shake my head...cause no words could come out...i havent told everyone yet.. i just....dont know what I want...i know its selfish but somebody please pray for me.
I was so excited, i was so ready. I wanted my baby..