anyway kill bryde. you know how there was that whole chapter opening where ronan was fretting about killing dream people?
he's gonna have to do it to bryde. a mercy kill. that mercy being towards himself

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anyway kill bryde. you know how there was that whole chapter opening where ronan was fretting about killing dream people?
he's gonna have to do it to bryde. a mercy kill. that mercy being towards himself
Matthew: how is everyone doing today? I’ll go first, I’m doing bad.
Not dead just being a recluse online. I do the recluse thing way to easily online and at home.
Working on some stuff along side school work. My painting class has mostly been us doing traditional stuff, bust, still life, etc, so nothing super fun. We are just now doing game icons and then our final is something more exciting. But hey I’m getting a painting done every two weeks I guess.
Here are some sketches of the gang and a ram lady and a mount I haven’t fully introduced yet.
The last one are sketches for enemies in a game we’re making in class. I need to finalize them/figure out what we need for the game. Cockatrice is my favorite. I’ll upload them once those are done.
These guys are all my babes
bryde continuing to reinforce that ronan is the perfect little dreaming machine and should inhabit this persona like an identity with no distinction between sleeping and waking, even going as far to say that continuing to separate them will not lead to happiness... a big theme of trc was separating dreams from reality, how to embrace the waking world and keep your eyes open, your eyes upwards, how to come out from behind shields of your own making even if reality is hurtful because you're still awake and alive. and we already see ronan sliding back into valleys he previously conquered (not knowing when he's awake and asleep) thanks to bryde muddying his understanding of his own mind. and then there's this from ronan:
it's the telltale techniques of manipulators and cult leaders to make people feel that way, and as we see ronan's mentality slipping back into unhealthy habits, bryde keeps encouraging it all.
he’s just a kid. just a kid that loves his family
call down the hawk // an analysis of W. B. Yeats's poem, The Hawk // mister impossible
FOUND THIS IN MY NOTES I WAS RIGHT? OVER A MONTH BEFORE CDTH CAME OUT? SPEECHLESS
when u feel comfortable answering mi asks: i feel like people are soooo wrong about pynch in this book like every essay ive seen ive been like hmmmm... not rlly how it happened did we even read the same book :/ anyways what are your thoughts on them and how/if everything can be resolved?
idk what the essays have been saying but if it's stuff like Ronan is insane luv xx then they're right.
but also okay. book 3 pynch is complex because we're trying to track down when/why/how Ronan will reach out again (or if Adam will be strong enough to reach out to Ronan even though the ley line got zonked. i don't even understand how he's still scrying anyway because he said he couldn't do it well at Harvard because the ley line was weak and now it's gone so. where's the magic from luv. anyway). we're talking about Ronan's arc. the regression (?) of his arc. backpedaling character development is zzz and on the surface it looks like that but it's slightly different. Ronan's subconscious mind re-manifesting his daddy/mentorship/hero issues to further propel himself into thinking that he's worthless as he is, that he needs to do great things to matter and Be Somebody, is this kind of latent imposter syndrome exacerbated by Adam's independence and the independence of his brothers and his high school friends and feeling like everyone is growing up around him while he's not. it's puberty part 2 you know what i'm saying. this got off topic. you're talking about pynch. but we're really talking about Ronan. because pynch can't be fixed until Ronan can be fixed because relationships don't fix people. Ronan's puberty part 1 was about not hating himself ("why do you hate you?" "i don't."). done. puberty part 2 is about loving yourself, independently from other people. not done yet. Ronan's gotta get there on his own, because while external love can provide good reference points for loving yourself (and self love can be built upon those foundations), true self love, the stable and resilient kind, subsists off of your individual identity. and Ronan needs to find his identity before things can be resolved. no one else can find it for him. not even his imaginary friend. i see him finding his identity when he can let go of Bryde, realizing that Bryde is just an echo of every self-patronizing thought he's ever had, accepting that he's just fine as he is, and that the people that love him are real and good and aren't against him. tldr kill Bryde