J.
It’s been a long time since I last posted here. I just don’t know where to express what’s bothering me. I’ve been having these thoughts almost every day since the day you were gone. I’ve known a lot of people since, but no one seems to fit into my life. Don’t know if it’s a curse for giving up on you that time or it’s just me not being able to fully move on with my life without you.
I miss you J, so much. If I could only turn back the time. Letting you go was one of the biggest regrets I’ve ever had and I couldn’t make it up to you anymore. I always thought that maybe you will still be here with us if I hadn’t leave you. To be honest, I blamed myself for everything, for giving up on you that easily, for taking for granted the years we had just to pursue my dreams. Now that I have almost everything I wanted, I realized, I was never really happy.
I just miss you every day. I miss everything about you. The pain will always be there. You never even visited me in my dream. I don’t know if I could ever meet someone like you in this lifetime. By the end of this year, it will be your 4th year death anniversary, the day you left us.
I have nothing more to say but I miss you and love you, always.
