Happiness Seeker

HAPPINESS SEEKER :) The sound of the rain is my favorite lullaby and the coffee’s aroma is my favorite scent. I am in love with words and the beauty of the universe.

[allyssaabanales]

One way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure. ♥️ (at Cafe Pression)

[allyssaabanales]

Dance with the waves, move with the sea. Let the rythm of the water set your soul free. 🌊✨ (at Seaside Boulevard, Mall of Asia)

[stabs]

[allyssaabanales]

Hassle.

[danger]

[peachisty]

you deserve to:

be happy

have all the things that you want

be proud of your self

have someone who loves you

be successful

hear a lot of compliments

feel loved

be accepted

have a cozy bed

have all the love in this world

get a ton of pets

love yourself

eat enough food

experience equality

hear a ton of positivity

drink enough water

have inner peace

enough money to survive life

have a cute apartment

get enough sleep

[allyssaabanales]

❤️

[allyssaabanales]

Sobrang lungkot lang talaga kapag magisa kana, nakahiga sa kama, tahimik, walang makausap, walang mapagsabihan. And kasi alam mo na kahit anong gawin mong share o kwento, wala pa din namang magbabago.

[allyssaabanales]

If only I could turn back time. :(

[allyssaabanales]

I'm trying to be ok, pretending to be ok. Pero ang hirap. Sarili ko lang pinipilit kong paniwalain na okay ako.

2 a.m. thoughts

[allyssaabanales]

Nafeel niyo na ba yung takot ka pero hindi mo alam kung bakit? Sobrang takot ka sa mangyayare sa kinabukasan paggising mo? Yung parang ayaw mo na matulog kasi may takot ka na baka mas worse yung kinabukasan? Yung imbes na maging excited ka sa paggising mo, kabaliktaran.

2 a.m. thoughts

[allyssaabanales]

I'm alert, alive, awake and overthinking.

Ugh. This sucks. Dapat natutulog na ko. Pasukan na sa Tuesday and still sirang sira pa din body clock ko dahil sa mga chenes na iniisip ko. Badtrp. Kailan ba to titigil? Kailangan ba? Argh.

[allyssaabanales]

Hi Tumblr! My hooman's back ❤️☺️

[alwaysbeyourmusepatty]

[allyssaabanales]

I want to be better for you

Maybe you’ve been feeling so regretful of having met and fallen in love with me. I know that I have hurt you in so many ways and for so many times. But I cannot promise you that I’ll be better. I cannot assure you that I won’t repeat the same mistakes. Though of course I want to be better for you, but I also don’t like to promise you something I’m not sure I can do.

It sucks big time having this bad temper. I’m usually mad and I always see the bad in people. But through the years, you managed to keep up with me. Despite witnessing the bad side of me, you’ve chosen to stay. You’ve been trying your best to understand me no matter how difficult it is most of the times.

When I do something wrong and you don’t like it, I even got more stubborn and kept my pride instead of simply admitting my fault and saying sorry for it. Forgive me if I often think and act as if I’m always right when in fact I’m not. I’m sorry if I’ve been close-minded when it comes to your opinion and sometimes I even argue with you over little things. I want to be better for you, believe me.

In fact, I’m feeling so embarrassed for letting you see these unpleasant things about me. Maybe I’m just being myself but I should’ve at least try to change for you. Again, i’m sorry for all these things.

Forgive me for having this ill attitude. I really wanted to change and be better for you. Unfortunately, whenever I do I just see myself repeating the same things. I don’t know what to do anymore. I tried so many times but I guess it’s never enough. I just hope that you’ll be able to wait for me to change. I hope you still can wait for me.

[escafeism]

I wish someone will come in my life and take all my sadness away. Someone who will do everything to make me smile. Someone who will tell me i’m beautiful even if i’m not. I wish someone will fight for me the way the prince defends his princess. I wish someone is brave enough to save me from all the sorrows I will go through. Someone, not perfect, but loves me the way i am suppose to be loved. Honestly, I need that someone now. I’m all broke and I need someone to be there right beside me telling me words like, “Its alright, I got your back.” or “Darling, world’s messy but i’m here for you no matter what.” I need that someone who would come at my house at 4:00 AM bringing foods that I want when i’m craving. Someone who’ll spoils me but scolds me at same time. I need that someone who will hug me so tight that all my broken pieces becomes whole again.

 i need you, where are you ? || missweird (via escafeism)

[escafeism]

Stop choosing someone who would never choose you.

Eight-word story (m.b)

[escafeism]

And then reality hits me hard: you cannot even put me at the top of your priority list when you have been my number 1 all this time. You can fall asleep easily after an unresolved fight when I can’t even stop thinking how to make things up with you. You can go on days without texting or calling me while I can’t last a day without hearing from you. It is apparent that I love you too much and you love me a little less.

I wish I could stop (m.b)