#mixed post

[a-dream-seeking-light]

Io's 'Steeple Mountain' (Artist's Concept) via NASA JPL Created using data collected by the JunoCam imager aboard NASA's Juno spacecraft, this animation is an artist's concept that shows a view of a mountain on the Jovian moon Io. The data was recorded during close flybys of the moon in December 2023 and February 2024. The mountain, which the Juno science team has nicknamed "Steeple Mountain," is between 3 and 4.3 miles (5 and 7 kilometers) in height.

[darkenergyslivers]

'Our Saturn years' Cassini's epic journey to the ringed planet, told by the people who helped make it happen [x] GIF at the end is a computer animation called the Ball of Yarn depicting Cassini’s orbital paths around Saturn.  

[shed0kryptz]

oue hi guys!!! apologies for the lack of art, ive been busy with school and what not. here’s a collection of recent-ish doodles. i currently started a new, bigger drawing so stay tuned for that!! :]

in order, left to right:

my oc cas, smuldunde concept, dedus concept, old unfinished wayne concept (may redraw once i make my full ref sheet), my oc evrim, my hylics oc thensurei, tiny thensurei, and my oc eli

edit: the oldest drawings on here are wayne, dedus, and eli. they are from june!

[cauldronsystem]

Host: Remembers 2% of an average day from childhood without context or an emotional connection to them and only for 5 minutes

Also Hosts:but... I can remember my childhood perfectly...I must be faking!

[weareteamrocket]

so we were asked if we're polyamorous still. and honestly. we have an idea but like,, idk

so we aren't monogamous, but we aren't poly either. it's more like,, we're into relationship anarchy! like,, we wanna have one main squeeze, one main partner to do everything with, and then if I wanna kiss my friends or cuddle with them I can! if we have sex every so often, maybe that'd be okay too (although idk,, we rlly only like having one person to call ours in that department)

but yeah, idk does this make sense?

[chocoboinspectorbalduin]

A story in pictures ... I guess?

Look ... I’ve had him sitting in the character creator since forever.  I finally settled on a name (thanks IG random name generator!).  And then I put him in game.  Don’t get me wrong ... I have a bunch of alts I don’t play and I barely play as it is ... (insert legion of excuses here).  But damn, is he a handsome, old, grumpy cat.   I already forgot the name I gave him, but maybe I’ll put together a proper post for him someday - but for anyone curious - I’ve put him on Mateus.  That puts me at 3 for Balmung, 1 for Jenova, 1 for Coeurl, and 1 for Mateus.

Do I want to RP?  I dunno.  After years of doing it, I just realize that I’ve always sort of done it for the wrong reasons and I don’t know what a good reason for me to RP is anymore.  So, I’ve just sort of backed away and hidden myself in my shell of FPS Tactical shooters (i.e. Squad and Insurgency), random single player games (That list goes on and on), browsing the Youtubes, and browsing my favorite Airsoft sites for things I can’t play with right now.  Hell, I just looked up how to make my own apple cider - which I may attempt to do in the coming weeks.

Maybe, just maybe, I thought that RP would do something for me that I couldn’t seem to manage to do IRL.  Who knows?  I mean, fuck.  I have few relationships that I bother to care about, yet all these people that I call friends ... do they even really matter to me?  Hell, I’ll throw money at people I’ve never even spoken to before.  What am I?  Some kind of backwards ass philanthropist or something?

I feel like I’m some kind of de-humanized wild beast of a human - which can’t be completely true.  Am I a lone tiger or am I just some outcast wolf?  If I became an outcast, it’s because I chose to throw myself out.  I choose to not let others in.  I choose to keep myself isolated.  I choose to pretend that everything is great.  I choose to be the weakest person I could possibly be.  Yet I have these dreams of something greater.

I could be better.  I could choose to be better.  But I don’t.  I never ask for help until I absolutely need it, yet I would fly across the world if necessary to help the few people I care about.  I continue to put all of these burdens upon myself.  What kind of sick fantasy do I have?  I don’t owe anyone anything, yet I can’t trust anyone with myself. 

I can’t even speak with my mother anymore without getting genuinely annoyed with her.  My dad is constantly in some sort of depressive state since he was fired from his last job - his boss was a real piece of work and I think that she didn’t like him and fired him on grounds that she was guilty of as well.  I’ve lost four grandparents in the past almost 9 years (since I joined the AF).  My former step-mother committed suicide right before I was supposed to leave for Korea last year (It was a year on the 8th).  I’m trying so hard to be supportive for my own family and I can barely support myself.  Fuck, man.

Am I OK?  Gods, I have no idea.  I’m just going day to day right now.  I don’t even know where to start.  I have nothing to latch onto, except for my usual daily grind. 

Why the hells are you still reading?  Fuck off <3

[a-dream-seeking-light]

Summer soda夏日苏打 4k by Y tt via this yt lo-fi hiphop mix:  

[weareteamrocket]

Making sounds instead of words and having people who can finish your sentence for you is top tier bonding