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08282019 ; daily update?

I have not written on here in ages. 

I really need to get back into journaling. 

I want to remember what my days were like when I can no longer remember them myself. 

Anyways, from September to November, I’m going to go on a strict diet and exercising regimen. I also need to save money for my trip to go see and meet Yanni. 

She will be the first MLDY member I ever meet. 

I really need to get back on track, there’s so many things that I want to do and learn and I need to get started on them because you never know what can happen. 

On a personal note, I feel like I’m ready for a relationship, but I also know that I am not ready for relationship. I still have a lot of work I want to do on myself before feeling comfortable enough to let someone in. 

I do want to make more friends though. Right now, my main friends are my work friends ; Aries, Scorpio, Cancer, Aquarius, Virgo. I have so other work friends, but they’re not in my main squad. 

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I told myself that I was over this dude, but I couldn’t find a proper person to replace them with so I ended up never really moving on and omg, he like smiled and laughed in front of me today cause I walked in and there was a funny, but weird situation and omg. 

I don’t even know him. I know like three things about him and have never had a proper conversation with him because I’m a socially awkward person.

but omg.

i need to stop.

i like to form crushes on unattainable people because i don’t want anything further to happen or wish for it.