“I won’t participate in angst week,” I said. “I have studying to do.”
I’m a liar, and pathetic, someone send immediate help.
Here’s Mistakes/Aftermath.
He didn’t mean to.
Chat Noir stares, the body of his father lying on the ground next to him. He’d just been wandering the mansion, unable to sleep but not wanting to leave.
I should’ve left, some part of him decides. This wouldn’t have happened.
But how was he to know that the same monster he’d spent the past few years chasing was his own father?
His father had jumped at him, hand eagerly reaching for the ring on his finger. He wonders if he’d just gotten desperate.
I used cataclysm on my own father’s heart.
It doesn’t register.
News spreads. Gabriel Agreste collapsed of a heart attack right in front of his son. Hawk Moth no longer sends out akumas. Chat Noir has disappeared.
Adrien Agreste is an orphan.
Everything is so quiet around him. Kim is no longer boasting, no longer challenging Alix to loud dares. Alix and Ivan are no longer having boisterous tickle fights. Chloe is no longer proclaiming her tragedies to the world.
I killed him. I’m a murderer.
Ladybug is seen travelling all across Paris at night, still searching for her partner.
He never shows up.
Adrien takes off the ring. He finds his way back into his father’s safe, and places the brooch there. There’s three miraculouses in there now. He wonders if the peacock was his mother’s. Wonders if their broken little family all had to do with this world.
There’s no one left to tell him.
He can’t really remember the exact moment. Can’t remember what happens. He thinks he transformed when he saw the kwami hanging out of his father’s jacket, and called for his power automatically.
Ladybug is stilll out there, jumping roof to roof.
Some nights, there are even videos found of her crying.
He hasn’t noticed, but Marinette is dwindling just as he is. It’s when they’ve ended up on the same bench too many times, a silence that envelops them not for him, but with him, that he finally sees her bloodshot eyes, or the seemingly permanent frown on her lips.
They are alone, he thinks, in this downward spiral that they can’t share the reason for. He does not know the story for hers, and she does not know the full story for his.
He finds it doesn’t particularly bother him, his hand reaching forward for hers.
This, he feels, is enough for now.
Eventually Ladybug gives up. Marinette grows out again, makes an effort to remove the silence from her life, smiles and blooms, and fills her day with laughter.
Adrien stays, stuck in his bubble, grief crowding all the space in his heart.
He stares in the mirror sometimes, his own gaze haunting him like his worst nightmare.
I thought I would share some amazing friends that got me things this year and didn’t have to. I shed many happy tears today and I can’t explain how thankful I am for my amazing friends.
@lalunaoscura wrote me this amazingly hilariously cute one shot with my favorite meme and Adrienette: With every heartbeat I have left(I’ll defend your every breath)
@hermionemonica wrote me this other super cute and sexy one shot with my weaknesses for music, singing, dancing, and piano playing Adrienette: We Can Just Dance to This
@katieykat513 gave me a Nintendo Online subscription so I could play Animal Crossing online with her plus flowers and fruit trees and I got to explore her island and get a Ladybug dress she designed. She also has amazing fanfics here!!! Check them out!!
I don’t deserve any of my friends. They are all amazing, even the ones not listed. I love you all and I couldn’t be more thankful and grateful for meeting you all. CRIES. I feel so lucky. Thank you!!! <3
I was going to wait to get the exact diagnosis, but I feel like I need to say it here so you all know. I am updating very, very, slow. The reason why you may not see updates currently is because all... of my joints are in severe pain. It hurts my fingers and wrists to write. My brain is foggy and all of my body is popping and hurting and a wreck. I hobble everywhere due to everything being stiff. I'm also extremely... exhausted. I got more blood tests today to rule out all... types of arthritis, among rare diseases, and also autoimmune disorders. If this isn't it... then it's looking into fibromyalgia. Currently, that is my Dr's worse case scenario. My mom has RA and autoimmune disorders, so we're checking those primarily first. I'm hurting and if you have read Unwanted Ring or any of my disability stories... I'm feeling Adrien. I've gone through moments of crying, frustration, and annoyance because I've had to relearn how to do simple things. Like... stirring food while making dinner.... opening a EOS lip balm... opening my son's fruit snacks... opening water... popping wrists from grabbing my phone or blanket or anything... Nothing is making the pain stop. I also suffer from migraines and light sensitivities. So updates are slow. I'll know next week if it's any of those things, hopefully. I'm okay. I know it'll get better. We're starting the journey to fixing my body. LMAO
With the news of Zag suing people for selling copywrite content, I will be deleting any fics that I have written that share names with novels I have published. The ones that I will be pulling will be linked and posted below so that you can download them. I won’t pull them until February 1st.
Please don’t hate me. A lot of authors do this and I was going to leave them up, but after this... I don’t want to chance it. I already emptied out my Society 6 shop and removed my commissions. While, they probably wouldn’t bother to mess with small time authors and artists... I don’t want to put any possibility out there.
If anyone misses the opportunity to download these fanfics you can email me at [email protected] and I’ll gladly email you the file too. ^-^ I know these fics mean a lot to people and I don’t want you to lose them. ^-^ I also understand that not everyone can afford to purchase my novels. Trust me. haha I’m right there with you. haha Anyway, download until February 1st please! ^-^
Alright, I want to and plan to finish all my open ended fanfics. That being said, what one do you guys want to see updated next? I'll make a list from most wanted to least and update that way. Haha Thanks!!!
I need help from any dudes who read/used to read my Miraculous Ladybug fanfics. lol
I'm really struggling to market my writing and books to men. Can one of you, or some of you help, by telling me what is was that draws you, or drew you, to my writing? I mean anything. Can be plot. I know a lot of you read my stuff for the plot and message and not really the spicier bits. So, if you have anything to help me market to dudes or reach them, please let me know. I'd really appreciate it. I know this is a weird question. I've tried a lot of different things and I can't seem to figure out what I'm doing wrong. You can comment or DM me wherever. Can even be on Discord, if you have me as a friend there. LOL
Send me the stories you've written on AO3, since it's under maintenance today (except the ones written on FFN aka fanfiction.net).
There are over 170 of them. It'd be easier to just wait for the site to come back after maintenance than for me to email you all of them. :) I'm sorry it was down though.