“for once, i actually agree.” and he actually does. myungsoo doesn’t talk that much – that’s how he sees him, and when he does, it all comes in all sorts of context that even yunhyeong can’t decipher. yunhyeong’s undeniably sentimental for someone so loud-mouthed. the topic depression itself brings goosebumps all over his body, body hair clinging upwards that signify his uncomfortable state. just imagine several of his friends going through depression falters his giddy self. “the fact that you bombard yourself with unfathomable questions already makes you feel so.. lonesome. if that’s the word. useless too.” he shrugs his shoulders, exhaling a nonchalant sigh with a composed posture. there was the truth along those lines, and he’s hoping at least that the other understands since he’s often slightly off when it comes to elaborating. nobody understands him. literally goofing around is his forte. he can’t even handle any mellow phenomenon himself. what makes him think that talking about depression is actually being just – all he knows is the pain for depression literally outweighs the pain unhappiness holds. “that’s just messed up. i’m messed up, am i ruining that smart brain of yours?”
“It’s not that you’re bombarding yourself with questions that you want to answer makes you depressed; it’s the other way around.” Myungsoo’s voice is soft, he’s not being sympathetic, he’s mostly being a little more concerned with the sensitivity of some people and he didn’t want the young man to see that he’s actually different from what he seems to be. He’s not entirely a gentleman, he’s rude, and he always says something out of context, but this is a serious topic, requiring him to change his person for a while to understand what is happening—that’s what he’s good at anyway, in analyzing things that doesn’t seem to concern him.
“You shouldn’t be too hard on yourself, those questions may be left unanswered now but you will find it, the answers you’re looking for. A depressed state would always be because of human’s impatience, and how they always want abrupt answers when they should be more capable of understanding the situation to themselves. Questions are often asked out of curiosity, not out of loneliness, and that’s none of anyone’s fault, but the fact that you’re questioning yourself of not being able to answer those petty questions inside your head, when you’re supposed to yet you can’t seem to find the right answer to do so, that’s what makes things complicated.” It’s probably the first time that he spoke too much, and spoke his mind about things that doesn’t really concern him but he feels a little concerned with the man that he found around the corner, thinking to himself even if they have no relation to each other. “You should just start distracting yourself, or better yet, stop overthinking. It wouldn’t do you good.”
