#mmtg thing

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I was once the person behind someone's smile and I know in the deepest part of me that he mean those words when he said I LOVE YOU.

TMRB

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My favorite stranger

     I will always remember how you once were, how you loved me then. I’ve known what makes you mad, what makes you laugh, and how those little efforts of mine flattered you. I’ve seen the way you get pissed and the way you smile for such little things I’d done before. I knew what that simple look means, even without you saying a word. I’ve felt what’s behind those silent moments we shared, those kind of hugs that made me feel that your arms are my favorite place in the world. I will never forget every inch of emotion I felt when we’re together. Those treasured moments we had, they are one of the best memories that made me thank God for having you even just for a short time. I will never forget what happened between our hello and goodbye, they will always be special . I’ll always be thankful that once in my life I was also loved by the person I love and for that I will always cherish every moments that turned into good memories. I will never fail to remember you as the person who loved me despite of my imperfections.      We maybe back to being strangers, but for me, you are my favorite one. Every story has its own ending and our book have reached the last chapter. It maybe goodbye but our memories will remain not just in my head but in the special place in my heart. Till we meet again my favorite stranger.

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Malalaman mong nakapagmove on ka na kung kaya mo nang maging happy para sa kanya kahit alam mong may mahal na siyang iba.

TMRB

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I will stop loving you someday.

What if one day I’ll stop loving you, would you miss me? I mean, would you ever look back and be able to realize how I had loved you then? Would you hate yourself for not seeing my worth when I was loving you still when all you have to do is push me away? Would you ever wish yesterday to come back to make it up to me?  How I hope it strikes you someday, but maybe that was a thing that will never going to happen, I’m sure that when that “i-just-don’t-love-you-no-more” day comes, you wouldn’t  even notice that this girl had been hurt so much that she can no longer love you with all the broken pieces of her heart.

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Akala ko kasi babalik ka pa.

Hindi kita pinigilan nun kasi akala ko magbabago din ung isip mo. Akala ko kasi naguguluhan ko lang at marerealize mo din na mahal mo talaga ako. Hindi ako gumawa ng way to win you back kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na tatanggapin pa din kita kung sakaling mauntog ka tapos bumalik na. Naghintay ako e, ang tagal kong hinintay ung araw na sabihin mo sken na mahal mo pa ako, na ako pa din ung mahal mo, na nagkamali ka sa desisyon mo pero wala e.  Umasa kasi ako e, hinintay kita kasi akala ko nun babalik ka pa.  Sobrang tagal kitang hinintay kahit na alam ko namang wala ng pag-asa pero 'tong puso ko e, hindi niya mapigilang maghold on kahit wala naman ng dahilan para gawin pa un.

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Matutulog ulit akong naamoy ung pabango niya. Takte nakakabroken ung ganito. Promise hindi ako iiyak sa higaan ko, sana. :)

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Dear MMTG,

             How’s this guy I love even after nine months being separated? Namimiss kita e, sobra, at naiiyak ako dahil sa pakiramdam na yan ngayon. Pakiramdam ko lahat ng tao pinapaalala ka sken ngayon, everyone of them is talking things about you. Siguro kasi September na, at ayokong maalala lahat ng meron sa buwan na ‘to. The memories are enough to break my heart again, nasasaktan na naman ako dahil sa mga alaala mo. Ung pabango mo, kanina ko pa naamoy at kahit naiiyak ako pag inaamoy ko, ginagawa ko pa din. It brings back the times I had you beside me, ung mga moments na sayo ko talaga naaamoy ‘to. Namimiss kita, miss na miss kita at wala akong pakialam kung muka na akong tangang hindi makamove on sayo sa kabila ng mga nangyari sten. Ayokong hugasan ung kamay ko ngayon kasi pag ginawa ko mawawala ung inispray ko na pabango mo galing sa tester sa SM kanina. It feels like a self-torturing kind of act, masakit pero di ko mapigilang amuyin, kasi siguro naaalala ko ung dati. Ung mga masayang moments natin na magkasama. Those nights na pinapayakap ko sayo ung unan ko para maiwan ung amoy mo dun para kahit nakauwi ka na e naaamoy pa din kita. Those times that you let me lay my head in your shoulder just to enjoy the scent you have, those tight hugs that I don’t wanna let go and for letting me bury my head in your chest hearing you heartbeat, those playful moments when all I wanna do is to smell your underarms. I miss everything about you, so much more than what can I express here. If only these tears could explain how I feel for you right now, if they could only speak for me then maybe you’ll realize that I still love you, the whole you—— your stupidities, insensitivities, mistakes,jerkness and whatsoever negative things about you. I love all of what you are coz I never see what people wanted me to see. I look at you as the guy who ever made me realize that I am worthy to be loved despite of those not-so-ideal attitudes I have, the guy who I trusted to give my heart to without this fear of getting hurt, the one who taught me so much about love and relationship, the guy who brought me all those “kilig and sleepless” nights thinking about him, the guy who took the courage to stand by me. You are the first guy who ever confessed his love for me. Ikaw ung unang nagparamdam sken ng love with confirmation, ung feeling na mahal ka ng taong mahal mo. You made me feel ordinary, salamat kasi hindi ka intimidated sken tulad ng iba, hindi ka natakot umamin ng feelings at lumayo nalang bigla. Thank you sa pagpaparamdam na babae ako. Thank you for every ounce of love you gave me and sorry that I have taken you for granted, whatever instance it maybe. 

            For the first ever guy I had a relationship with, for this guy who owns almost all my first times, my MMTG, lalabz ko, boyfriend ko(dati), mackypotz ko, Macky Maudi Tolentino Galicia ng buhay ko, I miss you bigtime. Remember what I used to say, I miss you ultrasupermega!!

PS: Sorry for still loving you, I know you don’t want me to. It’s like saying TMRB loves MMTG, period. No cycle anymore.

Missing You,

Tinamarie Rias Baldemor(TMRB)

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This feeling of missing you again, well, it's always the same kind of i miss you I felt since you walked out of my life.