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Day 2 from my introduction to Shadow Work using Mnomquah’s ‘Shadow Work October’ challenge:

This spread, the Hero’s Journey Spread, is one she posts for clarification of the path that we are going to be following during this whole challenge, and to be honest, it kicked my ass a little.

I won’t go into my own interpretation too too much, because honestly it would be crazy long, but the cliff notes are:

-being too close to a burnout, overworked, heavily stressed and taking a toll on my well being

-the whole point of this journey is finding the ability to speak up and out to myself and others in truth about how I am feeling and not just push it down (Hello Virgo Vibes!). And also, not fearing that by doing so I will lose those close to me or be alienated. Trust that those that love me will love me still as I find my voice.

- Being guided by a selfishness for my home; i.e. putting my family above all and not letting it become a second place to work, Also learning that I need to become more attentive to those around me, not making it all about me (LOL)

-The hardest part being that I have to step outside of my comfort zone and stop worrying. See things from a different view and embrace different thought patterns. Break my worry cycle. Also leave behind my snippiness. No more verbal sparring and arguments in the home. Learning to cool my tone and not be as argumentative as I have been.

-Taking in that I am not able to control anyone’s emotions but myself, but also taking the time to purge my ‘cup’ so I can refill it with clean energy.

-The most JARRING card that I got was the Devil as who I will become after the journey. In this case I see it as someone who isn’t tethered to good or bad. Someone that makes their own decisions and isn’t ashamed of anything in their past; bad or good. Someone that makes all their decisions and takes ownership. Working for themselves and making their own rules. Unlocked and Unleashed.

I will definitely be rereading this at a midway point and at the end of this whole journey.

Thanks for coming along for the ride!

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10/01/2019 - Mnomquah, the Monster in the Moon

A great, reptilian creature is more than merely a beast. Savage, for sure. Cruel, without question. And yet, this monstrous being is smart and filled to the brim with deceit, eager to sway both with venom of the mind as well as his indomitable might. And so, it had to bring much plight upon the Dreamlands, for the millenia without count he remains trapped on the Moon, bound to the unreal globe of silvery ash by some unspoken chains of eldritch endurance. He yearns now, spiteful and full of loathing, for his bride, his mate, the loathful Oorn. It is said that at the time of the great awekening, when the Great Ones will rise again from their many bondages, he will once again reunite with his monstrous lover to bear offspring of truly horrible nature, a scorn upon the cosmos as we know it. To that time, he remains locked to the lunar ground, seeping into the mind of weaker mortals, trying to endlessly find a way out of his imprisonment...

Cosmic horror is your thing? Click here to follow the making of the eldritchatlas!

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This has been my Shadow Work journey. Yes it isn’t October, and Yes it isn’t 2015, but the prompts from Joanna are absolutely amazing and a great start for someone like me who is beginning their shadow work journey. PLEASE check her out on instagram, her posts are well worth it and she is definitely some of my spiritual growth inspo 

As I work through the process, I will try to document what feels right on the blog! Looking forward to digging deep and pushing through

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Shadow Work Continues | Still working off of Mnomquah’s Shadow Work Challenge 

Waning Moon | How can I release my greatest fear?

This one was tough for me. I keep overthinking and perhaps that is most of the problem. I see this as trying not to force myself to heal faster than I can. Embrace the growing pain, embrace the feeling of being uncomfortable. Do not burnout, because if you force it you will burn out. 

I also am getting the feeling that releasing my fears will happen when I let go and release my words. Speak up and out how I feel in a journal or to a close friend, allow my emotions and words to take space so I can easily acknowledge and dispell them one at a time. As fear takes space, write about the feelings, ending with ‘ I release you’

Affirmation | I release all feelings of inadequacy, I release all feelings of judgement. I provide my own source of self fulfillment. I am enough.

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As I mentioned previously in another blog post, I am actively working on Joanna’s Shadow Work Challege which you can find here.

The first day is a Mandala. The challenge begins by creating this mandala of who you are at this moment. The goal being that when you create the mandala at the end of the 30 days, you can see a difference. This mandala was created today as a part of that prompt. It is definitely very personal, and I feel that my theme during this challenge is releasing my fear (and as I was meditating and guided-drawing this mandala the snakes came through; yet I am not afraid of snakes?).

Either way, this was a cathartic process, and not a traditional mandala at all. I am bracing myself for the next thirty days as I was feeling this energy all day after making it. Looking at it now, it feels raw and uncomfortable. 

I definitely cut the cords after that one.

Let me know what you think!