To Gundham, Taka, or Mondo,
I've been having a lot of issues recently. I just turned 18 less than two months ago and my mother forced me to get a job. Granted it's good money, but I have panic attacks before work and I'm losing sleep. It's also been getting harder to eat things and I've been getting sick. I applied for some jobs from home but I feel like I'm letting my mother and my brother who I work with down. My mother also decided to try and convince me to stay at this job by telling me I'll never get the job I want (streaming and youtube) and I'll never be like my role models. Could I also have a hug if you're okay with it?
- Raven
(Akane ate the fridge! That's the third time this week.)
Hey Raven, hngh, you and me both. Guess life is pretty shit for us huh, whatever, we’ll get through it. It’ll be a challenge but fuck it. Having a job is good and all, but it’s pretty stressful for someone as young as you are, even if you’re just freshly 18. That’s still new, you’re barely reaching the first step to being an adult. Shit, I can’t imagine how annoying it must be to being forced into working already.
You know, your ma really shouldn’t be putting all this pressure on you. I know she’s trying to help and wants the best for you, but finding a job for the first time is harder than anyone would want to admit to. Half the time you get rejected for having no experience and the other half ends up in not getting a response. It’s hard out there, shit, I wish I could just magically give you a job. It’s pretty fucked up that your mom’s telling you that you’ll never be like your role models, tch, she’s not entirely right.
Of course, you’ll be your role models, they’re their own person. You’re someone entirely different too, besides, it’s better to be different. You’re welcome to a hug, any time!
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I would like to extend on what Mondo was speaking on. Being different is far better than copying every little thing one of your role models does. You don’t want to end up being an exact copy, it will only be redundant in the end. I know a few colleagues that have gone down the streaming path and they are successful, even if it isn’t flashy like certain content creators.
In the end, the choice is ultimately yours, but you should do what you enjoy. There is no point in following a choice if you’re going to be miserable before, during and after. I do hope this makes sense for you Raven, I do follow one quote that perhaps can make you feel a lot better. If your mother says you won’t be like your role models, I would like to respond by saying that no you won’t. You won’t be like them, you’re already better, from my perspective, if that even counts for something. But changing the topic for a moment, let your mother know that it isn’t criminal to be individual.
And before I get carried away, you are welcome to hug me! I would be honored to be hugged by you.
I truly wish parents could be more supportive of their offsprings. Always judging them for everything they wish to do. I’m sorry Anon that you are going through such tribulation and woe. In my opinion, I say so as you see fit, it is not your mothers decisions anymore that you must follow. Since you are an adult, you may follow your own rules, your own way of life. A job at home is nothing to scoff at, it is a way for people with severe anxiety; a chance of lessening such incidents, such as panic attacks. I applaud you for still going to the job and doing your work. It’s a good thing to have a source of income.
However! It is your choice Anon! Either fight through and overcome that anxiety, or try a different path that better suits you. Either way. I and my other Fellow classmates shall support you. And hopefully, your mother and brother shall come to understand.
