#mod despair

[dangan-happy]

Give me back my glitter, Monomi! Um, Izuru, Junko, Mikan, today's my fucking birthday, and you three are fucking amazing! Can I have some birthday hugs and kisses on the cheek, please?

You, I remember very well. We have met many times before. Our fates have always intertwined. Our futures, jointed. And today marks a special and memorable day. I must commend you for making through all that life has thrown at you. Happy Birthday and congratulations.  

Alongside your hugs and kiss, I have some words from an associate of mine that I am aware you are fond of. Allow me to quote it word by word for you. 

“Happy birthday, my love. I’m very grateful that I have you in my life and am very honored that I get to be with you on this day. With you by my side, I can do anything and everything! I love you now and forever. As much as you want. Your Strong Samurai.” 

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Fuck yeah~! Happy birthday! That phrase kinda disgusts me, but there's an exception for you!

Of course you can get a hug and a kiss! You've got totes good taste by the way, me and Kamukura are, like, the best! Mikan? She's.... she's okay. But whatevs! This isn't about her!

Gotta few words from a friend of mine or whatever, too. She says "Happy birthday, my love. My treasure, my gold, my sunlight. I hope today brings you nothing but happiness, and I want the best for you. Remember that I'm all yours, Aurie. Forever, till the day you don't want me anymore."

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Fuckin cheesy! But that's her words, not mine!

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Y-You think so-someone like me is actually an a-amazing person?!- T-That makes me so happy...! Hehehehe....

A-Ah! I-I'm sorry I just got ha-happy from what y-you said- B-But, I wish you a-a wonderful birthday! I-I've seen many of your w-work before, and I-I have to say, they are a-a-amazing! J-Just like you yourself, Ally! I-I am more than happy to give you a kiss on the cheek an-and a hug!.. P-Please be safe..!~

[textsfromthebsaa]

Today is the 6th anniversary of Piers Nivans’ death.

[dangan-happy]

It’s an avocado… thanks! To Izuru, Junko, and/or Monodam (because you are precious and are severely underrated. Seriously, when was the last time you received an ask?). Some hugs, please? I just had some really terrible intrusive thoughts, and while I got reassurance and comfort, the worry is still there. I do acknowledge that they're just intrusive thoughts, too, but that doesn't exactly make it all better, y'know? Sorry if this is vague; I cried on VC with someone and am really tired now...

Intrusive thoughts you say? The type which gives you false premonitions of your well-being as well as the status of those around you. I sympathize for you how I can. Allow me to explain in a manner you may understand. 

The human mind is a wonder that nobody has figured out, with it we can conjure anything beyond belief in our heads. It created a false reality within you. One for the worse of things. Your emotions had blended with your mind to create despair-inducing images in your head, with the intent to make you feel fear and sorrow. But the reality of the situation is far apart than what your thoughts tell you. So hold onto reality. 

I have not forgotten. You have wished for a hug. While I fail to understand the nature of an affectionate act, it seems to be helping those in need. I hope your mind treats you better in the future.

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You-think-I-am-adorable?!... .... ....Thank-you. I-feel-warm-inside. I-hope-I-can-make-you-happy-as-well. I-am-sure-you-have-heard-this-before, but-I-am-sorry-that-you-are-experiencing-this. It-is-ok-that-the-feelings-are-still-there. You-do-not-need-to-feel-better-instantly. Take-all-the-time-you-need-to-relax-and-let-the-feelings-fade. I-am-glad-you-can-acknowledge-that. Yes-it-does-not-make-things-feel-better, but-that-knowledge-is-helpful-and-important-overall. You-are-a-smart-and-brave-person, and-as-hard-as-it-is, I-hope-you-can-remember-your-worth. It-is-ok-if-it-sounds-a-little-vague.

I-understand-what-you-are-saying. I-am-glad-you-have-had-a-form-of-emotional-relief. It-makes-sense-that-you-are-tired. Be-sure-to-get-some-rest. I-will-be-happy-to-give-you-a-hug. I-am-not-as-cuddly-as-my-siblings, but-I-will-try-my-best. Be-kind-to-yourself, you-deserve-it. Thank-you-for-including-me-in-this-ask. I-hope-I-answered-well. So-long, bear-well. Or-in-this-case, bedtime-ursine. Please-try-to-get-some-rest.

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Eww! Intrusive thoughts are like, so terrible! Like when you're just trying to have a normal day and then boom! Sudden violence in your head! It's so despairful, the icky, gross despair!

Of course the worry's still gonna be there. Comfort and reassurance and all that shit won't just magically fix everything! It's hella valid to still be worried, too. Intrusive thoughts are icky as hell! You're super valid, nonnie!

Sure sure! You can get a hug! I'll squeeze all the despair outta you and take it for myself~! Just kidding, I'd never do that. Maybe~! Stay strong anon, you'll get through this bullshit in your head! I know so!

[textsfromthebsaa]

Despair lives up to her name in the groupchat.

[textsfromthebsaa]

I know nobody asked for this but I got bored and had Style Savvy handy so hey, why not post up the official TFBSAA Mod Profiles? Complete with new, spiffy images!

Under the cut is info about the Mod Squad within the frame of the TFBSAA meta- stuff like their callsigns, ranks, little details like that if that's something you're interested in!

Mod Tofu Callsign: Pixel (earned from interrupting a post-mission briefing to complain about a dead pixel) Position: Senior Communications Officer

Can’t resist a cookie

Is part of the base’s baking class

Considers speed limits her mortal enemy

Plays too many video games to be healthy

if you so much as glance at her wildberry poptarts they will never find your body

Mod Despair Callsign: Freya (earned from being 3/4ths of Alpha’s unofficial mom, and Freya is a goddess associated with motherhood so...) Position: ??? (nobody seems to know and she’s not keen on telling)

Doritos and textling tears power her

Finn is her precious sun child and if you hurt him you risk bringing down all of R’lyeh on your head

Can instantly be summoned if you yell “KINGDOM HEARTS”

Wesker checks under the bed for her at night

Can be bribed with disney merch

Mod Piers Callsign: Reliable/Two (reliable because she always gets shit done, two because having 2 Pierses makes it difficult to differentiate and she was Two before she was Reliable) Position: 2nd LT

Is usually the one who fixes things when Mod Tofu happens to them

is the only person who can roll a 20 when Despair’s around?

has laser vision might be a jedi owns an arcfire tome

prettier than ardyn izunia

jake calls her “the good piers”

[textsfromthebsaa]

Why does nobody talk about the shark

[textsfromthebsaa]

Tales from Modchat: Sharks

Piers: shark snakes

Piers: snarks

Piers: I love them already

Despair: Eels

Despair: You're thinking of eels

[textsfromthebsaa]

Ooops... well, we seem to have had an accident where the box accidentally got cleared of the last 4 or so requests. owo’ So that’s the last of the RQs for now, but hopefully by August we can reopen.