TW//Toxic relationship
Oh yeah, we're going straight to hell with this one. I need to make this EXTREMELY clear- at this point, whatever their relationship is, is NOT healthy and should not be mirrored in real life. They're both terrible to each other.
Killer wants her to hurt him because he thinks he deserves it for killing everyone in the timeline over and over again as well as unintentionally dragging Lola into this mess, the resets start driving her insane too.
Lola hates that even though he clearly feels guilty he won't stop what he's doing, that he'd do it all again in a heartbeat. But hurting him isn't just an outlet for that, it makes Killer more open, more grounded because he finally feels like he's getting part of what he deserves so he's not as dissociated.
They hurt each other, most of the time Killer's happy to be hurt. Other times he slips back into dissociation and he's happy to hurt or kill her if she bugs him or gets in the way (she does, it doesn't feel as bad to hurt someone who's also fighting back).
Lola doesn't know how to feel about Killer, she craves having a close genuine connection that isn't wiped away by the resets but she's not really over the whole "he's killed my friends and me hundreds maybe thousands of times because he wanted to" thing. Killer unfortunately, still adores her. He doesn't even think she's done anything wrong. He doesn't seek any closeness because he doesn't think he deserves any of it no matter how much he misses it. They're stuck in limbo where Lola won't cross the bridge outside of building that emotional connection because Killer's far too happy to let her do whatever she wants and that's really uncomfortable.
