#mod matthew

[trans-guy-positive-blog]

transmale heteromantic moodboard for @real-wave (images aren't originally mine)

[tazkinzone]

could i have positivity for johann?

Hi there Johann! You’re another fantastically awesome person - you’re funny and great all around, and I’m so thankful that in this life, we can hear and remember your amazing musical talent! Your compositions are beautiful, haunting, intimidating - and this time around they’re actually pretty famous.

Keep faith in yourself, cause no matter the circumstance, you’ve got this. Eyes forward, fingers on the beat, and nothing can stop you. Don’t ever forget to keep hope and know that you’re well loved. 

-Mod Matthew

[doodles-with-dudes-blog]

The biggest mistake… my art.

[demigender-positivity]

Can't Find The Words....

The past few years have been so confusing and upside down. I began my journey as a homoflexable cismale. Then realized it was biromantic homosexual. But that still didn’t seem right. I through around pansexual and panromantic homosexual. Is Demipanromantic homosexual a thing? Now I’m stuck on gender. Some days being a boy is totally cool but others I feel really disphoric and hate be identified by my penis. I used to feel I was fluid because I enjoy femininity but after becoming a drag queen if feel as if it has made me more comfortable with my masculinity and that extreme femininity was for my alter ego Sophia. Most days I feel androgynously feminine with a dash of masculine, but I don’t know how to allow others to see that. Recently I came across the term Demigender but I can’t figure out if I feel more Demimale or Demilflux. Both seem to be close but I’m not sure where to go from there. I’ve been using They/Them pronouns lately and been noticing a significant boost in my mood when my gender isn’t assumed, but I still don’t mind He/Him most days. Then this leads to the question of how my gender effects my sexuality. I can make a romantic connects with any gender but most of my sexual desire is for males, but I can be sexually attracted to a person of romantic feelings if I grow to romantically love and trust them. So I guess the question is if I’m not as binary as I thought can I still identify as a homosexual? Is Demigender Panromantic Demipansexual Homosexual a thing? Any thoughts would be much appreciated. Love to you and good vibes from the Universe.

-------------- Mod matthew here! I noticed this is a fairly new blog, and you had this same post as the very first post. Making a blog for gender is always an interesting discovery and adventure! Thing is, u can have whatever labels u want, i personally find it comfortable to keep things simple. If u identify with those labels and they make sense to u, go for it. U can just say ur demi all around and skip explaining your life story to others if that makes u feel cozy and safe. Or you can keep the specifics and leave no room for question from others! Whatever works, u feel? You're coming off as very overwhelmed, so maybe simplifying it could help reduce stress. Identity should not provide stress!