“I didn’t expect a good ending, all I wanted was a ending. “ ~Leon Kuwata x Reader~ !Angst!
Hello everyone, Mod Taka here. I promise I’m still alive, I just don’t have a lot of time to write. But anywho, here something that made me cry while I was writing it.
-Trigger Warnings- Cursing, Degradation, Suicidal thoughts, Death, Daddy issues, Parental Abuse (father), Loss of Father, PTSD, Alcoholism, Domestic Abuse, Violence, Described Blood, Flashbacks, Verbal Abuse, Physical Abuse, Fatal Car Crash, Implied absent mother
Leon faced up against his father, a red glow in his eyes. Letting anger out during baseball just hadn’t been enough lately, and he had gotten into a fight with another kid today. Look where he ended himself up at, in the burning gaze of the man who makes his life a living hell. He was just like Leon at his age, the apple didn’t fall far from the tree. Leon hated what he had become, but he wasn’t left with much of a choice. Leon barely flinched when his father’s clenched fist met his face, much to used to the pain of it all. However, this time Leon fought back at him, bitch slapping him across the face. He could see the new found rage swelling up in his dad’s expression, and it didn’t take long for it to come bursting through.
He cursed himself as he felt his shirt collar being lifted up off the ground, taking him with it. Before he had time to react, a hand was wrapped around his throat. His head started to spin as the grip became harsher, clawing his nails at his fathers hands. Screaming silent cries for help that came out as short, ragged breaths. He felt himself slowly losing consciousness, as his esophagus started to collapse. Like his father could see the exact moment before it was too late, his hand was withdrawn. As soon as he was let go, he fell to the ground, his knees roughly hitting the ground. Gasping for air, he looked up at him. “How fucking dare you hit me! I fucking raised you and this is how you repay me?! You should respect me, this is exactly why Marisa left! It was all your fault, it always has been.” His father said with a harsh tone, the scent of the alcohol lacing his words with an even worse poison. He roughly grabbed Leon’s jaw, pulling him eye to eye, ”You were a fucking mistake.” Leon hit the ground as he was once again let go of, but the next time he looked up, his father was gone.
A tightening of his throat and a short intake of breathe broke his façade. The all-to-familiar grief engulfed him as he was taking on another heartbreak. Gut-wrenching sobs tore through his chest as he covered his face with his hands. He felt the sudden urge to collapse in and on himself, as the human sounds of suffering escaped his lips. Oh, what the situation he had gotten himself into now. Laying on his living room floor, his dad no where to be seen, crying. He rocked himself as his hands wiped the tears away from his eyes every few seconds, causing them to get red and swollen. The thoughts started to worsen as time passed, still alone with his own mind as his own little form of torture.
“Is it really are worth it?” he asked himself, fighting back against his own thoughts but all efforts ending in vain.
“It would be easier of you were dead.”
“The days would be brighter without you in them.”
“Is suffering this much worth the beauty of living?”
“Maybe your dad is right about what he says.”
“Everyone and his life would be better without you.”
“Maybe- no. He is right.”
Leon got up on shaky legs, the exhalation of his emotions still clouding his vision. He collapsed onto his bed, the thoughts of things he didn’t want to think about finally being drowned out by nothingness. He passed out moments later, letting the numb feeling consume him.
Luckily, it was a Saturday and he didn’t have to go to school. He groggily got up from his bed, finally getting his shit together. He walked through the house, scared but also relieved at his father’s absence. The high pitched ringing pf his phone blared through his ears, and he picked it up and answered it. “Hello?”
“Is this Leon Kuwata?”
“Yes...?”
“Your father got into a accident last night, we need you to come to the scene.
~Time skip brought to you by Hina’s doughnut addiction~
He got there in enough time to see his father’s bleeding body being pulled from his car. He opened and got out of the car so fast he tripped on the door itself. Getting to the car, the seen the trail of crimson along the dash and splattered along the seats. There were empty beer bottles scattered periodically in the floorboards. Oh. He turned his attention back to his father, who was now being put into the ambulance. He hopped into it, starting to feel the grief swelling up in his chest. He sat next to his father, taking in the sight of him. Blood was staining his plaid shirt, and there was dried blood along his head and neck. But he was still alive.
That was until they got to the hospital, and Leon got the pleasure of hearing the monitor bleep to signify the flatlining of his dad’s heart. He watched the life drain out of his eyes as doctors poured into the room. Leon was pushed out , and left staring at them through the door window as his dad was attempting to be brought back to life. After moments of terror, it only got worse. Every second added to the heart break as the doctors pronounced him dead. Leon fell on a chair, tears leaking from his eyes. He hated him, but he didn’t want him to be dead. And now, there was nothing he could do about it.
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“y/n, if I ever had a moment I wished for death the most, I would be that one.” Leon turned to you and said, “All of my life I have wondered how much pain you would have to go through until you are allowed to give up.” He placed his hand on top of yours and laid back in your chest. “I still have nightmares of that crash. I still have flashbacks of him, but nothing prepares you for the pain that comes when it is lived through. I have learnt that the hard way. I didn’t expect a good ending, all I wanted was a ending. But I no longer want that now, I want the moments I spend with you to last forever.” He looked up and spoke, “So please, never give up.”
Hi!! I don't know if this account is still active but if yes could i please request a sunset demiaroace color picked flag from Miu Iruma? Thank you!! Also can i be 🤖🎭 anon?
