#modern!ben

[valkxrie]

❝ i was afraid you wouldn’t be here. ❞ { more modern!ben & valky!b }

@kylo-wrecked

"Where else would I be?" She had the vastness of space at her spine - and no question more genuine. Brunnhilde set her gaze on Ben the way one might set a hand in another. The way one might kiss a wrist.

"You don't look frightened." She was not sure what that look was. He wore it around his shoulders like an old sweater with its arms tied at his throat. "You do not look relieved either."

[callmehopeless]

In The Rain

Modern!Ben Solo x Reader

Plot: Kissing in the rain after a long, painful longing.

A/N: I've come up with a few ways to ease me back into writing, so I'm writing very short snippets, so people who don't know me (hi guys!) can get to know my writing style, and people who do know me (love you all) can get set back into what I do. A portfolio, if you like. :D I'm using as fewer words as I can in the hope I can still evoke the right response, as a challenge to myseldf.

Words: I'm challenging myself to make you feel something in as little words as possible. I have no idea how many words this will be, but it won't be many. If you liked it - let me know, man.

He meets you on a secluded street; drizzly and dark, in a clouded November.

Ben has always been to big for his own body - he shoves his hands into the pockets of his jeans as he approaches you, his hair catching the sheen of the slightest rain. The scent of it lingers; somewhere at the very end of the alleyway, you see the lights refracting on the pavement.

He closes the distance with a few awkward strides, and his eyes look anywhere but at you.

"What's this about, Ben?"

He's always fretting on a word. Plush lips on an ideal - he tries to find the spare lines in poetry, when he's alone. You've heard him, when you've tried not to hear it.

He's human, after all.

He chews the inside of his cheek, and the rain comes down like it's waiting, somehow.

"I needed to see you."

Needed.

You shudder.

"Doesn't give me a lot to go on."

Ben's heel finds a piece of loose gravel. Somewhere far off, sirens echo out; leave the city behind you, as he looks down at the pavement at his feet for the longest time.

But when your eyes look up; he finds you.

His throat bobs; brown eyes dark with something. Hell, it's so intense that it hurts you - there's an ache that burns as it goes down.

Ben takes the longest time before he asks.

"Don't you know?"

Don't you?

Haven't you always known?

Haven't you known, when he squeezes the steering wheel? Haven't you known, when his smile reaches to the top of his eyes? The way he presses his lips together when you share something broken and quiet? The way you find his hands, amidst a dark place?

You know.

But your feet tremble, all the same, as you step towards him.

His hands - these huge, calloused hands - they tremble like he's hooked to a live wire. And when you're in range of them--

--Ben crushes you to him.

Ignites, like a live wire.

And the rest...

...the rest is left to a drizzly, November sky.

Left to whispered lips, and crowded bricks,

And the crescents you dig on his shirt - long since promised, after years of waiting.

[poppunkkylo]

I Hope This Reaches Her In Time

A/N: I’ve literally been working on this for weeks. It was the first story I started writing and I’ve been toying with the concept for a while. Towards the end, I started getting really tired so sorry about that. More to come at some point. Also! The poem* mentioned in this is not mine at all. It’s from r.h. sin. He’s amazing and you should all check him out. The title is also the title of one of his books and will come into play later. As always, feedback welcome. But remember, be kind.

Chapter 1 Words: 2.7k "Sweetie, it's time to wake up," you gently nudged your daughter. It was early Monday morning which meant it was time to get her ready for preschool and yourself ready for work. She slowly sat up, rubbing the sleep from her eyes. "Mommy, I don't want to go today. I wanna stay home and watch princesses with you!" she said putting on her best puppy eyes. You lightly laughed and pulled her out of bed. "I know, sweetie, we can watch princesses tonight and wear our tiaras and eat popcorn, ok?" You started to pull out some clothes for her to wear as she smiled and nodded at the promise of princess movies. You continued through the motions of the morning, getting your daughters snacks ready for daycare, getting yourself dressed and a light amount of makeup on. Once you both were ready, your hair in loose curls and your daughters in her favorite space buns, you grabbed your keys and purse and headed for the train. You dropped your daughter off at her school and making your way to work. Mondays were always your favorite day of the week because that meant new works for you to read. Being a publishing reader meant you get to read unpublished works and decide if it's in the company's best interest to publish them. It was exciting holding someone's hard work in your hands. This week's list included two murder mysteries, a book of poems, and a self-help book. Your boss will positively add more on, but for now you were content with the list. Picking up each manuscript, you contemplated which one to start with as you sipped your hot coffee. You carried on with your day, writing reports on market research for the manuscripts you decided to push through. The end of the day finally comes around, you gather your things and make your way outside. In your purse, your phone vibrates. Thinking it was your neighbor, a sweet older lady named Linda, you pulled the phone out only to be surprised. "Ben Solo," you stated. "Y/N Y/L/N it's been too long," he replied. His voice making your heart flutter. Stop it, you told yourself. "It's been what? 4 years since grad school? That's entirely too long not seeing my little sunshine," he continued. "Uh, yeah about 4 almost 5 years," you bit your lip. "Well what are you doing tonight? Let's catch up, get a drink," he offered. You contemplated, but then remembered you had promised your daughter you would watch princess movies. "Well, tonight isn't the best," you hesitated, "I have plans actually". He was silent for a moment, then he spoke, "Oh, well that's ok. I actually just moved back to the city so I'm around. Maybe tomorrow?" "Yeah tomorrow would be good. I'll text you?" you asked. "Yeah, sounds good. Bye, little sunshine," he smiled. You smiled into the phone as you said your goodbyes. You finished walking home while thinking about seeing Ben tomorrow. He was your best friend all through college and grad school. You thought it had all changed once you graduated and went your separate ways when Ben had moved across the country to Salem, Oregon to start writing. You picked up your daughter from Linda's apartment, held her hand and walked down the hall to yours. As soon as you two were inside, your daughter ran over to the movies and pulled out her favorite one, Princess and the Frog. "Mommy, mommy! Princess time!" she ran to her room, grabbed your tiaras and plopped herself on the couch. "Ok honey, I'll start the movie, you put your tiara on and get comfy," you smiled as her eyes grew wider in anticipation. "Mommy, you need your tiara!" she exclaimed. You laughed and put yours on. You watched as she listened to Tiana's father tell her about reaching her dreams. Your daughter never knew who her father was, she never asked so you never explained. You figured as she got older she would start to wonder where he was, maybe then you would tell her. But for now, it was just the two of you. The next morning was much like the previous morning. There was one thing different though; a text from Ben. "Hey sunshine. Can we get dinner tonight?" Looking at the message again, you thought it sounded like a good idea. When you and your daughter were ready, you headed out the door, making a quick stop at Linda's. She opened the door when you knocked coffee cup in hand and apron on, "Oh hi, sweetie!" she greeted. "Hey, Linda. I need a favor," you nervously looked at her. You didn't want to go into too much detail, but you really wanted her to watch your daughter longer. "You have a hot date tonight, don't you?" she asked, your daughter looked at you with a wrinkled nose. "No, no, lord no. I'm meeting an old friend for dinner. Can you watch Lilly a little later than normal? I can give you cash for dinner," she put her hand up to stop you. "I'm more than happy to watch her, but you don't need to give me anything. Enjoy your non-date, and you little one," she looked at your daughter, "I'll see you for our date!" They both giggled, and you thanked her. You grabbed your daughters hand and carried on with your day. She was more than happy to go to school today, if it meant she got to spend a night at her "Aunt" Linda's. You arrived at work and started your day. Focusing on new manuscripts was difficult when you were anxious for dinner with Ben. Nevertheless, you managed to make it through the day. Five o'clock came and you took a breath. You had been texting with Ben all day about where to meet. You both decided a little Italian restaurant in the Upper East Side that you used to go to every Friday night while you were in school. Heading to the subway station, you ran through what could possibly happen in your head. Before you and Ben graduated, you were dating a guy named Jerry and Ben was always your shoulder to cry on when thing went wrong. Shortly after Ben moved to Oregon, things went really wrong with Jerry. You lost all train of thought when you saw Ben standing outside. He wore a simple button up, sleeves rolled up and tucked into his slacks. But damn, he looked good. He saw you walk in and stood up, smiling wide. As you approached, you bit your lip and fiddled with your purse strap. "Hi," you said, bashfully. "Hi," he replied. You both stood there, awkwardly for a moment. He pulled you into a hug. "I've missed you," he said with his face in the crook of your neck. It felt like it had been a millennium since you hugged him. You hugged him tighter, as if trying to make up for lost time. "I missed you too, Benny boy," you pulled away, "we have so much to catch up on!" You smiled and followed him in to the restaurant. They sat you at a table near the street, in your old familiar place. This place held so many memories, the two of you would come here and catch up or vent about the week or simply just enjoy a nice dinner. There had always been a weird chemistry between the two of you, both having small crushes on the other but no one acting on it. When you started dating Jerry, you kept the Friday dinner ritual going. You ordered a glass of pinot noir and your favorite Italian dish. Looking at Ben, you noticed how he had aged. Taking a sip of your wine, you smiled at how comfortable you were. "So, what's going on with you? What's new?" your smile still lingered. Ben had a way of making you smile just by being around you. "Well, as you know I just moved back from Oregon, which is incredibly beautiful by the way. While I was there I wrote a lot. But that's really it, nothing too exciting. I missed the city and it felt like time to come back," he shrugged and took a sip of his own wine, "what about you?" Your food arrived, and you thanked the waitress. "Oh, me? Well a lot has changed since school. I work in publishing, uh," you paused, contemplating if you wanted to tell him, deciding to be honest you continued, "I have a daughter, Lilly." His eyes widened as his mouth was full of spaghetti. He was obviously shocked, "with Jerry?" he asked. "I mean technically, Jerry flipped when I told him I was pregnant and said he didn't want anything to do with me or the baby then he left. I haven't heard from him since the summer you moved," you put your hands in your lap and started fidgeting. "Well Jerry is an ass, you're obviously doing very well for yourself and I'm sure Lilly is a lovely lady," there he goes again, making you smile just by being himself. You pulled your phone out of your purse and pulled up a picture of you and Lilly in the park a few weeks ago. "Here, this is her," you handed him your phone. He smiled as he looked at the two of you. "I'd love to meet her, I mean that is if you're ok with that," he handed you your phone and briefly your hands touched. Your cheeks started to heat up, "of course I would be ok with that. If you want, you can come meet her tonight." You both smiled and continued catching up over dinner. Your heart felt 20 times lighter now that he knew the truth. An hour passed, Ben picked up the check. It was a nice, early summer night so you decided to walk across the park to your apartment. As you walked, you talked of old memories and experiences you've had being a mom. When you arrived at your building, you stopped at Linda's to pick up Lilly. When Linda opened the door and Lilly ran out and into your arms. "Hi sweetie!" you hugged her and gave her a kiss. "Mommy, who's that?" she noticed Ben and started to act shy, hiding her face in your neck. "It's ok honey, this is mommy's friend, Ben. Can you say hi?" she unburied her face just long enough to smile and say hi. You thanked Linda for watching her and told her you would catch up tomorrow morning. Walking down the hallway to your apartment, you felt Ben's eyes on you. Since arriving at your apartment building, he had been silent. You figured it was the shock of seeing you as a mom but in reality, he was stopping himself from shouting out how much he loved seeing you in a motherly role. You opened the door, putting Lilly down and inviting Ben in. "Do you want some coffee?" you offered trying to make him feel comfortable. He nodded and took a seat on the couch. He looked around the apartment and noticed all the pictures of you and Lilly. You looked happy in all of them, despite the struggles of being a single mom. He saw Lilly digging in her toy bin for something. When she finally found what she was looking for, she brought it over to him. "Here, I have a tiara if you want to wear it. You have to wear it if we watch princess movies," she handed him an all pink tiara. He chuckled and took it, placing it on his head. "Ok, I'll wear mine, but you have to wear yours too. A princess should never be without her tiara." She ran and grabbed hers from her bedroom. She ran back into the living room giggling about mommy's friend in a tiara. Your kitchen had a breakfast bar that allowed you to see everything that was happening in the living room. You grabbed the two coffee mugs and headed to the living room. "Well don't you look beautiful," you said to Ben as you handed him his coffee. He chuckled as he watched as you opened the DVD player. You normally fell into your nightly routine of cleaning up around the apartment while Lilly watched a princess movie and fell asleep. With Ben here, the routine changed just a little. You placed the movie in the player and plopped down on the couch. Lilly brought you your tiara. You noticed Ben watching you. "We do this a lot. She's on a Princess and the Frog kick right now, so hope you don't mind," you smiled as you placed the tiara on your head. As the movie started, Lilly made herself comfortable sitting in between you and Ben. You sipped your coffee and sang a long lightly. After having watched this movie with Lilly about 100 times, you had most of the lines memorized. Around 8 o'clock you noticed Lilly wasn't singing or saying the lines. Instead, she was asleep and leaning on Ben. You started to get up and went to grab her, but Ben stopped you. "It's ok, I can put her to bed," he picked her up gently, "which way to her room?" You pointed him in the direction of her room. Grabbing your coffee, you tried hiding the smile growing on your face. When Ben came back, you thanked him for putting her to bed. He sat back down and looked at you with such care in his eyes. "They threw her into the lion's den and instead of feeling fearful, she tamed the beasts*," he said. "That's beautiful, Ben. Did you write it?" He nodded in response. There was that look again. He looked like he wanted to say something more but let it go. "I'm really sorry Jerry left you. You're a great mom and he's missing the chance of a lifetime raising Lilly with you," he took your hand and gently rubbed his thumb on the back of your hand. "It was hard getting over heartbreak and being pregnant, but now I'm over it. He was a crappy boyfriend and sometimes I wish I'd never been with him, but then I wouldn't have Lilly. She's never asked me about her dad or why she doesn't have one, so I've just never told her." "You could've told me, I would have moved back in a heartbeat," he moved a little closer. He pulled you in for a hug and you rested your head on his shoulder. "Ben, it wasn't your burden to bare. Not that she's a burden, but the situation was mine to deal with. I wasn't going to make you give up your dream to help me adult," you looked down not wanting to meet his gaze. He let out a sigh and place his hand on your thigh, "Well, I'm here now. I never got around to telling you my good news," you turned and raised your eyebrows signaling him to go on. "I'm being published," he smiled. "What!" you quietly yelled, "Benny that's amazing!" You pulled him into a sideways hug. His dream was coming true, for as long as you had known him all he's wanted was to be a published poet. "I want the first copy, you hear me? Signed and everything!" You pointed at him as you spoke. "Of course, sunshine, whatever you want," he laughed. The two of you sat on the couch and chatted for a little while longer. Close to midnight, Ben stood up and stretched. "I should get going, but I'd love to see you again. Tomorrow maybe?" You followed suit and nodded in agreement. Walking with Ben to the door, you rubbed your eyes. He pulled you into a hug and rested his chin on the top of your head. The two of you stood there for longer than either of you realized, just holding each other. "Goodnight, Y/N" Ben placed a kiss on your forehead. "Goodnight, Benny boy." You let go of his torso and watched him leave. Maybe things would be different between the two of you this time.

[valkxrie]

[ TXT ] : i’m outside. don’t look out the window { modern!ben @ valky!b }

@kylo-wrecked

[Ben: 4:34:02] : You know this means I’m going to look outside immediately.

[Ben: 4:34:07] : And that I assume you want me to look outside.

[Ben: 4:34:12] : If you try to jump scare me, I can’t promise that I won’t punch you in the throat.

[callmehopeless]

42 Fluff + 32 Kiss with Neighbor AU Ben Solo pretty please!

42. “You’re the only person I’ve ever actually wanted to spent the rest of my life with.” and 32. “A kiss so passionate, so perfect - that after they part, neither person can open their eyes for a few moments afterwards.” with neighbor!Ben

Being in love with him is too intoxicating for words.

You see him every day in passing: small gestures as you wave to one another, him coming home right as you go out. Being his next-door neighbor is the curse you never knew you’d be suffering under, and it’s...paralysing, some days.

He’s just so fucking beautiful.

One night, the world is so endlessly still. You sit on his balcony looking out at the city lights, his chair pushed up close to yours as soft music plays. He’s practicing his caligraphy while you just sit back; relaxing in the presence of someone you can’t help but dream about.

He smells of heaven, and looks it, too.

“You ever sent those to anyone? Tried writing love letters, you know?”

Ben smirks at your comment, setting down his things on the nearby windowsill. His arms stretch behind his head, biceps pushing his shirt upward while he rests on them.

“Love letters, hmm?”

You shrug.

“Bet the girls would go crazy for it.”

His eyes spark, teeth nipping at his lip in thought.

“Think I’m waiting for the right person. Someone to spend the rest of my life with. Someone...” he huffs, swallowing. “I dunno.”

You shuffle, leaning in closer. In front of the backdrop of the city, your face hovers close to his own; his aftershave dancing on your tongue as a siren whirs in the distance.

“I like that.”

Ben shuffles, nose inches from yours. His eyes drop to your lips for a moment - then back up to meet your unwavering gaze.

“I knew you would,” he whispers.

So you lean in: eyes fluttering shut as Ben’s mouth eclipses yours.

The world moves to silence as your lips press to his, moving in time with him when he leans in closer. Huge hands cup just below your ear, guiding you closer to him in the low light as you share the same air.

It’s the most beautiful moment in the world.

When you both pull away - you’re suspended. Suspended with eyes shut; smiles on both of your lips that reach up to crinkle at your eyes.

Ben laughs, giddy and half-lidded when he pulls you into his lap.

“You know,” he shakes his head. “I...I’ve wanted this for so long. And I thought...” he bites his lip. “I’ve had people I’ve wanted before, but you’re the only one I’ve ever felt something even close to this for. You’re the only person I’ve ever actually wanted to spend the rest of my life with.”

City lights twinkle like stars, and Ben Solo swallows your kisses like the dark swallows the cityscape.

And the world is so, so quiet.

[valkxrie]

wrapping the sheets around himself like a cucullus, he groaned. “Ugh, somebody turn off the sun.” { modern!ben complaining @ human!b }

@kylo-wrecked

A cheshire grin chewed at Brunnhilde's face. She perched beside Ben and tugged his cotton cowl lower, obscuring his eyes so that she could kiss him blind.

"I cannot turn off the sun," she pressed her mouth to the corner of his jaw, "or make you less hungover." She kissed the other side, "but I can bring you toast," and then Ben's cheek, "and coffee," his nose, "and aspirin."

She kissed him with only the sun watching and waited for him to answer.

[valkxrie]

[TXT] : what are we? { modern!ben @ valky!b } 

@kylo-wrecked

[txt] : You are Ben, and I am B. [txt] : We are persons on a rock that is hurtling through time and space. [txt] : Eventually, we will be swallowed by the sun.

[valkxrie]

{modern!ben @ human!b} [sms] : are you safe??

@kylo-wrecked

His name is illuminated in her palm. "Just Ben". He is still Just Ben.

[b] Checking up on me? [b] I'm fine.

She's smiling. Just a little. Just for being checked up on.

[b] Are you okay?