#modoki shitposts

[usamodoki]

i saw someone that horribly betrayed my trust the other day and it’s still affecting me i’m so angry and i cant let go of this bitterness

[usamodoki]

There are a lot of nights my gf has to fall asleep while she's comforting me while I'm crying I hope one day I can believe her promises Of her swearing not to leave Of her swearing that I'm not too much and that she loves me There are days I look around and look lost But really I'm taking in the scenery of everything around me as it looks like when I'm with her Like maybe someday I'll not be here anymore to see these sights, to see her face, to see how everything is okay when she's around Like maybe I'll never see them again when and if she leaves me

[usamodoki]

Hey 久々にセルカを投稿する★

[usamodoki]

もう無理 この価値がない存在はもう嫌だ 何度も繰り返すミスが多い いつも「君のせいじゃねえ」ってもう 嘘つくなくてもいいよ なんで私が欲しかったの？ ここ壊された、焼けた、侵されたあたし 前からクズだと分かってなかった君 まだ気づいてないの？ クズだ あたしはクズだ 最近あたしが君を怒らせる 毎日、毎日 あたしがなにもかも失敗してる ごめん

[usamodoki]

you know how much shit I had to go through and that I put myself through because I didn’t know my own worth 

now that I have something good and proper, you know how hard I’m going to fight to protect it? 

stay in your lane, you fucking bitch 

[usamodoki]

Its been a year but its never been as strong as it is right fucking now

[usamodoki]

I have the apartment all to myself today and the first thing I did was take a shit with the door open

if you ever wanted to know what freedom as an adult is, this is it. 

[usamodoki]

There are times where I feel like I'm just too much and she's gonna get tired of me so I wanna pull away but if I do that she'll notice I'm being distant and what if that hurts her but the thing that actually scares me about it is what if I pull away and she doesn't notice, and rather doesn't mind it either? which would validate my beliefs that people get tired of me after they get what they want(sex)??