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For real though being a nerd is hard work

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"Never frown someone could be falling in love with your smile" hey maybe someone's falling in love with your snarky demeanor so just never smile never ever

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You know what though? Those people who say that you can't learn things from TV shows and fictional characters and say it's not healthy to feel not so alone when you're watching actors on the screen or reading characters from a book?

I feel so sorry for them.

Life's not really that long. I mean yeah we have 75-100 years but that seems like less and less time the older I get and the bottom line is that there are not enough people in this world for you to learn everything you need to. There's not enough strangers on the street and and friends and family and neighboors and coaches and teachers and leaders and coworkers and media people for you to learn all there is about what living is and why its so important. There's not enough fate, not enough coincidence for you to always learn what you need right when you neede it. 

Books have this amazing power of preserving lifetimes, of keeping a whole 80-100 years in a couple hundred pages. By reading you live a thousand lives and you learn so much more than you could ever have before. By watching TV shows, you see things, watch characters make choices that you'll never have to make, but that are important to know your answer to. They give you the unique opportunity to step into someone else's shoes for a while and understand them. 

Because of books and television shows I know what it is like to be a king, a peasant, a time-traveler, a madman, a rebel, a lonely girl, a broken girl, an angel, a demon and so many more things. We have this capability for immortality, we can live as many lives as stories we can experience in our lifetime and I think that's just one of the most incredible things about our world. 

I'm just shell-shocked that people can be so un-invested in stories that aren't "real life". Real life teaches you a lot, and is important to experience. You will live a good life without stories. 

But would you live an extraordinary one? One where you could sympathize with that depressed friend whose perspective you now understand, one where you fought for human rights just as hard as the rebel army did against the evil queen, one where you understood how complex our minds are and that there is no way to guess thoughts based on appearances? Could you live a life where instead of saying "She never says anything interesting, she's so shallow?" your immediate thought is that "no one's ever been interested in her ideas". Stories let you see the best in people. 

I guess its just. Books and TV shows have done SO much for my capability to empathize and experience life to it's fullest extent. People who deny themselves that experience? I highly recommend you give it a second chance. 

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I just went through my middle school fanfiction.net profile and let's just say its a period in my life I don't talk about

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Things I need to do: unpack, find my cellphone, wash all my clothes, repack, rememorize lines and leave for choir tomorrow Things I want to do: sleep Sorry to say it but I think I'll be on a week hiatus especially since I can't post on my phone D: thanks for putting up with me you guys!

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IM BACK XD well not home, but I have wifi at least :) The queue failed miserably but I tried for you guys :p I posted my queue for now because I can't even keep my eyes open. There's nothing like your 9 pm flight being delayed to 2 am and then cancelled after you wait 4 hours and moved to 6 am Geez. But! Positive, I met a nerd fighter on the boat :)))

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I mean I'm not sad or depressed or anything, but lately I just..haven't been getting excited about anything?

I mean I just used to love so many things and used to just like being awake and doing things. But now, if you actually get me to do things I do them so passively. 

I used to jump up and down over little things read books in a night because they were so wonderful and spend hours perfecting the dialogue between my characters because they spoke to me and it felt so important that I get it right for them. 

And I'm very good at hiding it. But I haven't finished a book in 3 weeks I haven't written in 2, haven't even really felt like blogging. 

I don't know. I'm not sad. 

I just wanna be happy, like I used to be. 

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I have always thought that the whole 'walk a mile in someone's shoes' idea was really stupid. Because walking where they have doesn't really change your perspective on them, it's much less about physical presence it's about emotional presence. How does that place make them feel? What memories do they associate with it? You can't understand someone just by knowing where they've walked and what they've seen, I so life would be a lot easier.