Hi Heartlilith ! I saw you said that no matter how you look you will always feel ugly if you have moon oppositin pluto ( and i unfortinetly agree with this) , i have that placemnt plus chiron in the 1 , pluto sextile ascendant and lilith square the node so finding myself as pretty or attractive is never gonna be an option, self hate and depression is just the theme of this life but my question is what does chrion conjunct the ascedant mean - does it have the same theme couse i have that too and i cant find info about that placement ? Thank you for the help :))
Hi Anon,
Moon square/harsh aspects can be notoriously hard to deal with, but that doesn't mean you should give up. Depression and self hate do not have to be the theme of your life, just some obstacles. First, before answering your question, I want to discuss the positives of the aspects you mentioned because even if you feel ugly, that is not actually the truth. Everyone has something to offer this world, something much much more valuable than being "attractive" (what does that even mean anyways?).
Moon opposition Pluto: The opposition aspect is like a seesaw, switching from each extreme and struggling to find a middle ground. For you, this is happening between your Moon and Pluto. It's hard to express your emotions, you would much rather brush them under the rug. But this is what gives this aspect its ammo. You repress and repress and repress, eventually bursting when you can't take anymore. You need to channel these emotions instead of acting like they don't exist. Whether that's through writing, talking, painting, working out, etc. You may find that you're an extremely creative individual, emotionally intense and profound. Able to see your goals through. The emotional depth this aspect gives you is like no other, learn how to make it work for you instead of against you.
Pluto sextile Ascendent: Charming, emotionally intelligent and deep, magnetic, intuitive, and transformative. Just by meeting people, you have the ability not only to transform yourself, but to transform others as well. This aspect makes you mysterious, magnetic, and intriguing. You are a powerful individual.
Lilith square North Node: This aspect in and of itself is transformative. Your soul's growth chart (NN) is squaring Lilith (the dark feminine, the oppressed, the dark side of the moon), inviting Lilith to be explored and then eventually, expressed healthily. As you get older, it'll be easier to unlock Lilith traits, and you'll be better at expressing your authentic self.
Chiron conjunct ASC: This aspect is basically taking Chiron in the 1st house and amplifying the energy, since it's sitting close to your ASC line in your natal chart. You are deeply compassionate and understanding. You are very familiar with your "demons", as it's a part of who you are and how you see the world. This is a healer aspect, both to yourself and others. This aspect is probably in the natal charts of the best therapists in the world! It comes easy to you, how to help others and the ability to really listen to them. Your wounds are at the forefront of your identity, they've given you the power to be resilient and strong. You can teach others this - to turn their wounds into strengths. Without putting effort into trying, you are a natural healer.
I hope this helped!
