#moonshinestudying

[thestudyfeels]

Been thinking about how it's so easy to give up. I struggled with ONE sum today, did it five times and spent ¼ of an hour on it before I finally got it. Listen, whatever you're doing, don't give up so easily. It doesn't only help u solve a stupid math problem, but it makes you stronger as a person, and builds ur grit. There's no course you could take, or tips you could read to do that.

So please, don't give in. You're not done yet.

[inspostudying]

[ 07.03.19 ] back to reality.

[thestudyfeels]

🍵 WELCOME, it's a sleepover! *sips tea*

I'm hosting (with all the beer hello. narrator: she's underage, everything is a scam) a sleepover this weekend!!! I'll not host these every weekend though, perhaps once or twice a month depending on the tea (and beer. *narrator has left the chat*) but I'll try my best to be consistent!

Spill the tea, denizens —

Tell me about ur day & ur wins

Your current favourites! Books/music/movies/shows/podcasts, any form of content works ayo

Fuck, marry, kill (when u basic af)

Recommendations for anything you want me to check out!!

Where you're from and what's new with u

If you want advice on anything, come over! I'll try my best

If you just wanna rant, I'll lend my ear at $0.00 only, we're on sale

How are ur pets and best friends bc nobody's left out in this household

What are you proud of this month! Honestly how was this month for you!!

Anything else that's on your mind! I'd love to hear from you :")

Here's my ask box! I've got beer (narrator is found crying, rest in peace an unheard soul), and you've just gotta share the bread now!! ✨

[thestudyfeels]

[ squeeze 2018 —  I: my biggest wins/losses this year ]

This is Day ONE of the Studyblr Squeeze 2018 Challenge! Feel free to join the challenge and attempt it at your own pace, it’s incredibly important to reflect back on life in order to do better in the future.

Day ONE: List your 10 biggest wins/losses this year.

Love myself = 2018 was the year i finally learned to love myself for who i was. Before this, i’d believed that i loved myself, but i didn’t really, my negative self talk levels were unconsciously high. (i made a post about learning to love myself as well.)

Fuck others = this year, I worked REALLY hard to not let what others say about me; and I succeeded. It no longer bothers me. Earlier i used to spend hours thinking about what X said about me, even tho i wouldn’t admit they bothered me. Now i listen to what they say, remind myself my opinions about myself matter most and forget about it.

Grades, rise UP = I kept my grades up even though no part of me really desired to. This was impt to please my parents; something I’m still, sadly, obliged to do. For stats, I hit 96% this year, my highest ever! Plus, my grades were always above 93% through all the semesters and I topped my section.

Ranks, drop DOWN = My rank in my additional education institution (Indians would know the hype about these, lmao) dropped to 24! Aiming to go down even more and prove myself I’m capable to everything.

Discomfort loves me (or maybe it’s the other way around) = I seeked Discomfort at most of the opportunities I got. I’ll admit, I’m not the most confident gal around here, but I am WAY more confident than last year, and I’m only going to get better in 2019. For stats: have been vlogging my trips since 2 years, didn’t break the streak. Stopped having that ridiculous hesitation I used to have about asking questions in class. Strolled around with a Mary Poppins umbrella in class, risking looking like a idiot. Invented a weird crab dance which i did in class all the time (i am… weird.) and forced others pals to do too (i got ignored a lot lmao).

What an outcast = Began to crave being an outcast. Now i HATE everything about fitting in. It’s gotten to the stage that i go out of my way to do weird and strange things in front of people to prove to myself that not only am i confident but also a stand-out, a leader. Here’s something i realized: standing out feels so good. It’s incredible to be more of yourself and less of what society wants you to be. + NF’s Outcast helped TONS.

Stood up for myself = On several occasions. I used to be awkward about standing proudly for what i believed in because i was so scared about standing alone but i  stopped doing that. Be proud enough of yourself to be there for yourself too.

Trust more, trust better = i learnt to trust my friends better and open more to them. Also i continued to not trust everyone blindly, because straight up, that’s just foolish, homie.

Got SO close to my middle splits!! = this was such a journey, y’all. I’ve been wanting to do the splits for such a long time and in 2019 i hope i can a) get the splits, and b) do a cartwheel, i am so EXCITE.

Hit 5k on this blog! = I hit 5k denizens two days after Christmas. A wonderful way to end the year, thank you for supporting me, your love means a lot. :“) (i cried about it here, annoyed the shit out of my last follower too lmao - ily tho)

[thestudyfeels]

squeeze 2018, day two

This is Day TWO of the Studyblr Squeeze 2018 Challenge! Feel free to join the challenge and attempt it at your own pace, it’s incredibly important to reflect back on life in order to do better in the future.

DAY TWO: Recall the times you set goals for yourself. And clapped for yourself.

I couldn't even make myself type this, i was so ashamed and embarrassed, sweet lambs.

2018 was a BIG fail externally. If you read my wins, you’ll see that most of them were personal growth related. Which is awesome! YET, if i don't use my growth to expand and make things happen, it’s not of much use. I don't think becoming a spiritual monk is on my career list anyway.

Few reasons for this fail -

I set the wrong goals for the year: Here, take a look at my goals list for the second half of the year -

(i had to white out some part for privacy reasons, btw.)

I accomplished around 50% of some goals while others become home to dust bunnies. A lot of these goals, like most of the “outside exams” i had planned to give, weren’t really priorities. And hence, i failed to accomplish them, because i felt no real drive to chase them.

I didn't plan my goals out on my calendar: i could've easily read 40 books this year (i hit 33 btw, pretty close) and worked out harder had i planned out specific reading times and planned my workouts out in advance instead of jumping in on a evening and being like, “ok, hopping kangaroos and dancing tacos, let’s do it!”

I didn't stay accountable: i rarely opened this doc to check on my goals and track how much i’d progressed with them. A huge mistake. Not only i forgot what i was meant to do a LOT of the times (exams and school work tended to overwhelm me), i also forgoed the motivation i’d have gained had i checked up with my goals.

And THAT helped me accomplish next to nothing in terms of external goals. This is so sad, alexa, play despacito. (literally.)

--- What am I doing to change that?

I’m not perfect. No one really is. I preach about life and about conquering your effin life already, but i make mistakes too. I’m just a human growing, and recording everything i’ve learned via .pdf.

(i sometimes think about looking back on these posts 10 years from now and exclaiming how the people who follow me now literally GREW with me. Just saying, if y’all wanna be featured in my content years from now, follow me. Yes, i'm shameless.)

Here’s the game plan, fellas

The first step is setting the right goals. Day 5 of this challenge focuses exactly on that, stay tuned.

As i jot my goals, i’m also going to plan out an action plan for each so that i know exactly when and how i’m going to attack my goals.

Main thing, i’m going to update my progress on this blog, at the end of every week. That's 51 updates (as the first week will just be planning) under the tag ‘#attack 2019’. These will go live every MONDAY, so if you’re willing to be my accountability partner, jot your goals and tell me your progress in the comments of every update post.

Tl;dr -

I failed miserably at accomplishing my 2018 goals because 1) i set the wrong goals and 2) i didn't stay accountable (mainly).

I’m changing that in 2019.

I’ll post my goals for 2019 during week 1, under day 5 of this challenge.

Every monday of 2019 (starting from week 2), i’ll be updating you with my progress. If you want to stay accountable, update your progress in the comments on the ‘#attack 2019’ posts and i’ll cheer you on!

2019, HERE WE COME!