Aug 2
Having this amount of trauma for my childhood sucks in many ways. But one thing I fear and grubble on the most is on my self. I truly do not know who I am, not without my trauma. I don't know. It feels like I may likely be a nice person only out of necessity, not bu true empathy. I wonder how self centred I am truly. How I'd truly interact. Without my trauma I feel like nothing. I feel there was nothing before my trauma. I remember the traumatic memories, a teeeny bit more. But other than that everything up until like ~3-4 years ago (2022/2023) is mainly just... blank Also cause I've accumulated issues that most people my age don't know how to interact with. A ramble on this is also in my drafts gruh...