Amazing fuyu kodachi (barren tree in winter) modern kimono with beautiful crepuscular colors. OP paired it with a hakama and a pretty black haori with Western building woven in urushi (lacquered threads)
Aka a werewolf's rambling about the missuage and disregarding of ptsd in discussions about going against miusing medical terms and mental illnesses. I sound really mad here just know it's most definetly not targeted at you <:3
I've thought about this for a while, and it nags my brain constantly. I've seen how much we've progressed in the recent years in regards to destigmatizing and deromanticizing mental illness, including how serious conditions are wrongfully used for jokes and lighthearted comments. But while I see so many reminding about how you don't say "I'm so ocd bc insert small thing about order", "The weather is bipolar" or calling any person with a history of mistreatment a "narcassist", and I'm truly glad those voices are being heard. But I do feel a little left behind. I've seen many who loudly complain about the aformentioned claims, while turning around and misusing ptsd.
I know it's "not a big deal", sure yes you definitely have ptsd because of that minor inconvenience or embarrassing childhood memory. It's not harmful at all that you're stereotyping this at times very disableing and distressing illness and "slightly bad memory." /sarc
I've thought about it extra because that person critizing the misusage of some conditions, while not caring or doing the same for ptsd exists close to me, my sister. A few weeks ago we where talking some, and somehow got into discussion about neurodivergence and mental illness. She said some other iffy stuff that I tried to rebute but she didn't listen, (eg; saying that bigoted bias in the medical system is "not that" prevelent and that it doesn't justify doing a researched self diagnosis). But to my main point, after she'd tambled some about the missuage of the aformentioned examples I thought the time to share my personal experiences and thoughts finally had arrived.... But nope, she just looked uncomfortable and went "ehhh", saying it "wasn't the same". I'm going to be honest that cut right into my soul, she knows about my ptsd, she's seen the affect it's had. And while she hasn't heard of all that happend nor just how much it affects me, she has definetly seen my reactions to anything triggering. And again, she's on the internet, it's very likely she's come across some mention of ptsd. Basically I'm not really surprised, but sad, angry and dissapointed.
I know some people view ptsd as either "soilder disorder" -> Aka very foreign can't happen to anyone else, or as some minor stressed briefly discussed on people by r/fakedisordercringe (one of the worst subreddits no debate). I think many need to hear that; I cannot function as a "normal" teenager should, I can't talk to others, can't share my interests, can't be touched, can't hear a loud voice, can't hear a slighlty angry sounding tone. I involuntarily fear a large part of the population just because of my mind.
I've expected and saw the face of my abuser on everyone I passed, even if it was a baby, a 70 year old man or a teenage boy. I fully expected to see and saw her face everytime, I live in fear, go in periods of being scared to go outside. I see her sillhouthe nearby, hear her voice and feel her cold hand. While she's almost 4 years in the past by now, she's still here. And she always will be.
I've bitten my boyfriend in a moment where I'm not there, just scared because he grabbed me too hard. Just a week ago I bit myself so hard It started bleeding and is now bruised, because he twitched and hugged me hard. I cry when someone sends me a text containing "ok" or when I slightly feel worse than someone else. I fear where I live, I fear my deadname.
Do you really want this? Is it really as fun to joke about now? Now that you've heard it's not "just flashbacks" or "just bad memories" I assume not. If you still think so I'd gladly give you mine I don't want it.
To not be all negative, I do find certain jokes about it funny, and I don't blame most who do say these things as it's so normalized. Most times it is lighthearted and I personally say *I have ptsd from very obviously non-ptsd things to reclaim and make fun of my own experience. To cope. Though if you have misused it once again I don't blame you, but I'd recomend and really encourage you to say things like this less. It's something small, but it has a big effect, both ways.
Sorry for all this rambling, I've just wanted to get it out, and hopefully find others who share my frustration :p
Hope I didn't ruing someones day hjhjh/lh /gen TwT
[/ndir] /mad at the people who do say this, at least I hope you've second guessed your usage of ptsd in this mannor.
Being openly nonhuman is a bit of a mixed bag tbh. I like that I am unapologetically myself whoever I'm with, and that I'm with beings who support me. But I still feel I can't be fully open about the physical aspect. It's already shunned a lot in the alterhuman community, so how would my non-alterhuman friends truly "understand"? Some don't even seem to fully understand my queerness, and then I tell them the being infront of them is ok all levels nonhuman? Idk
Kind of vent post ig, just constantly hearing "us humans" and similiar brings me sorrow that I cannot really been seen as myself by the vast majority of the population.
My species dysphoria together with my ptsd acting up has left me in a weird state. My body yearns for transformation, but I feel It's locked away as I can't relax. My paws aren't but also are what I see. My teeth nor but also is what I see. I've let out sorrowful quiet howls as I've seen the almost full moon, but not dared let myselg be free. Because of others, and because of my binder. Without a binder I get gender dysphoria and by extension species dysphoria, bjt with one I do as well. It's like I have to be caged to be me.
