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When life gives you lemons…

TLDR; Life is hard.

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Blog type: Educational, NSFW, Rant, Life Update, Late Night Thoughts.

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Life never seems to distribute suffering equally.

For some people it seems like they cant go a day without it and for others it seems like it barely ever crosses their paths. This is a big reason why I no longer believe in religion. We are all put on this earth but the playing fields are different for everyone. Yet those born into a life of suffering and those who live a life of luxury, all pray to the same God. But to me it seems like only one persons prayers are getting answered.

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How do I remove others expectations from my own?

TLDR; -

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Somehow this feeling always seems to come back to me one way or another. No matter how much I grow and change, I can never escape this horrid need. I wonder if its because I thrived off of peoples praise growing up (and well into my adulthood). That pat on the back whenever I accomplished something to someone else’s liking. But, what happens when the things that I desire don’t align with what you want for me. What if, what you think is best for me is slowly poisoning me from the inside?

I’m not sure where the lines got blurred and I lost sight of what I really wanted for myself. Who and where would I be if I listened to only my voice and not theirs. I have more questions than answers and looking in the mirror I feel sad. My sense of direction feels skewed. I can’t diffuse between ‘what is right for me’ and ‘what is just right’.

Removing their underlying expectations from my own - makes me squirm. So uncomfortable that I choose to press my lips together and smile. However my gaze is empty, distant… Your words of wisdom do not save but yes in fact plague me. Everything swirls around in my mind and its a paralysing fog, a storm that I have no control over.

I hate that.

When will my silence return, though I can’t remember a time that I did hear it. But, somehow I crave its presence and the calmness that it can provide. A resolve that what's done is done and what needs to happen will manifest.

I feel myself buried underneath all of this mess, but my face remains as emotionless as the slow beats of my heart. A shell really.

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Thanks for reading.

Love,

Mosha

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