#morerants

[averegina]

I never thought that I'd be stuck in my house for Christmas break. I want to go out and go to Cueva Ventana, Caja de Muerto, Playa Rosada, Palominos, La Mona, Toro Verde and more. *The list goes on* , but I can't. I love the Internet and everything, but this is getting boring and monotonous. I feel like a total bleh. :/ 

[jamiespurpleduckie]

Tired of being told I’m not “fat enough” to have body imagine issues. Beauty has nothing to do with weight. Fuck you, at least your pretty. I have to glob on tons of make up and hair products and padded bras just to look “feminine”. Every pound I gain ends up front and center making me look pregnant, my hips are twice the size of the rest of me, I have insect arms and “athletic” (is that supposed to make me feel better?) legs, my eyes have huge raccoon circles a family trait I got worse than everyone, and my hair is the color of a mouse. I have things to fucking complain about too! I’m an unconfident scared of the world around me mess of a human being. You’re big and beautiful I’m boyish and homely. Leave me alone. Telling me that I’m too small to feel bad does not make me feel better, it makes me feel ashamed. You’re not helping me, your putting me down. Which would be understandable if I did the same to you but I don’t. I long to be curvy. I long to have a big chest to match my hips, I long to look like a woman. Despite years of being the “skinny” friend (I’m not skinny just short and petite, there is a fucking difference ask any short girl who weighs more than a hundred pounds.) I was not flirted with, despite what my friends thought. No I was made fun of, harassed, assumed to be the slut and to be easy because I wasn’t confident. I was shamed into never opening my mouth, shopping alone, and rarely going shopping without an adult because I wasn’t “big enough”. I was embarrassed because I still had to wear kids clothes, or everything was too long, and I couldn’t wear dresses because the dresses and skirts that fit my waist were WAY too short. I couldn’t wear a one piece because they sag in the middle and I was a bitch for being the only one wearing a two piece. My gal pals thought I was the “pretty” one because the pervy boys flirted with me. They didn’t flirt, they harassed, and only because they believed the wild rumors one of my so called “friends” started. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of feeling shame over not liking my body, on top of NOT LIKING MY BODY. I’m working on being healthier mentally and if that means working through my body issues so fucking be it! So just back the hell off ok? Because I’m not exactly the “idea” woman either, and I have issues too.

[mystic-fox]

today:

1) found out one of my good friends is suicidal, 2) helping another friend through a nasty break up, 3) don't remember parts of last night, 4) been feeling sick all day, 5) decided i hate myself, 6) been thinking about switching schools, 7) realized i'm stuck in a void with no hopes of getting out, 8) i miss my voodoo dolls and need to see them soon but we're all dispersed across states now so we won't all be together until summer, 9) realized i'm never going to be able to take my own advice, 10) i've become the type of person i hate most.  i don't have the energy to function anymore. 

[thattgurllx]

You fucked up mate

So there is this guy who I have had my eye on for a while and he has had his eye on me however, every time we try to organise something such as a movie, dinner etc he always has an excuse or will just stop replying to my messages. So today out of nowhere he messages me that he has the house to himself and really wants me to come over so we can hook up. Hmm okay just a few problems mate:

1. We have never actually met. 

2. I thought we could maybe get to know each other. I don't know call me crazy. 

3. I am not just some booty call. Considering I have never met you don't even get me started...

Like I get it. Some guys you go back to again and again and you have exes, ex flings etc but seriously dude put in some grafting. That's just pathetic. If you want a slut there are places for that shit but looks like tonight your just gonna have to pull yourself. 

I swear I know how to pick them. 

[itsmelissabye]

It's funny to see.

I went through the last couple weeks on my tumblr.

It's funny because you can see when I was okay with where I stood, when I actually put myself out there, all the emotions when I was happy, when I was left and all the after math from it.

Damn, these past 5 weeks have been rough.  But I'm glad I experienced it, I had fun and I learned something - So thank you.

I wish we were still friends but I think that's just me wishing for a second chance.  You didn't do anything super special for me, so why would I want a second chance?  I shouldn't.

I think it's just me wanting to hurt you just like you hurt me.  But I can't.  Because you can't hurt someone who has no feelings.

[saturnical]

I can't beleive it.

My old phone / camera/ my imaginary d-slr is lost.

My old phone has a strangely unique thing that I can't lose. 

It's camera.

I use it for taking my photographs , and WELL. FUCK THE EARTH It's LOST.

I'm spamming your dash with text post. SORRY.