#moss journal

[ecstasydemon]

i finally finished decorating the inside of my hobonichi weeks :)

[ecstasydemon]

started a new general/rambling journal today. thinking abt posting more abt journaling just for the hell of it

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journal entry 39

I compiled all my findings and current questions and left them in the research center back in town. I'm getting nervous.

I returned to the injector in the mountains the other day to do some excavation. The rot is deeper than I thought it was..the snow had covered up most of it. It's eating through the rock. What I don't understand is how can amethyst grow off of it?

I set up barricades to try and slow any runoff from snow melt in case it gets mixed up in the ice.

I also looked back on some old research logs we found. My current theory is that rot might be a weaker form of the ruin the previous expedition team was studying. And if I'm right, the facility we found is active and there might be other things they were studying that we just haven't uncovered yet.

There's so many new faces in town, I don't recognize anyone when I walk down the main street. I feel like I should be happy that so many people are able to find us and enjoy themselves but…this isn't the island for pleasantries. Our original team has almost killed each other at least five separate times…maybe more.

Do they even know that they're trapped here? Do they know that they can't leave? Why did they all come here? Are they here to study as well? Who sent them? Did they come on their own?

I have to bite the urge to hide away at the outpost. I need to stay in town a bit longer and get answers.

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journal entry 38

The outpost is coming along nicely. I built a bridge and some pathing across to a hill where Galloway has been setting up a farm. Chamuel's been helping out with gathering supplies here and there. It's been really nice!

I..I still feel a bit conflicted about leaving town. It doesn't help that Cal came by and acused me and everyone else out here of just leaving him. I feel like part of it is just the trauma talking but…It still hurt to hear.

I hope he knows that I'm not leaving town forever. I just need a bit of space to study. And yes I am taking a bit of a breather after everything that happened, but I'm not doing it out of malice! I promise!

Maybe poking my head back in town every now and again will convince him that I'm not abandoning Rosebud.

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journal entry 37

I ran away again. Damien wasn't who I thought he was.

He showed up in town, tried to play nice with everyone, and when I was speaking to him earlier Angel pulled me aside and told me he saw Damien leaving a shack that had everything that was stolen inside it. Folks around town said he's been saying some awful things and…he kept trying to ask me how to get through the fog.

They confronted him and I felt a fight break out. And when Galloway and I rushed up to the inn where he was staying everyone was trying to kill him or torment him and demand to know what he did with Cal.

I don't know just how bad a person he was. And I trust that if everyone reacted as they did, the treatment was deserved. I just…the way everything happened so fast. I got scared. Calliposis and Chamuel and Galloway and I all left. We couldn't watch that.

None of us are saints. But even bad people deserve a chance to defend themselves. Even if they were in the wrong, they should get a voice. We offered that choice to the Vampire Lord, to Obaran, why didn't we offer it to Damien?

I don't want to know how things ended. I don't want to know what they did to him. I just want to know if they managed to finally find Cal, if he's safe, if he's alright.

I'll come by town once things have settled down. The outpost feels safer right now.

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journal entry 36

It's been almost a week now I think. There's still no sign of Cal. I did find a new face out near the remains of the shipwreck. Their name is Penny, a merfolk from the looks of it. She seems nice! A lot of the new faces on the island do.

I've been hard at work getting the research outpost up and running. There's just about everything we could ever need out there. Alma, Chamuel, and Lillie stopped by yesterday to drop off some extra supplies and set up some farms as well.

It made me really happy seeing everyone come by and start bringing some life into the place. I hope everyone gets a lot of good use out of it. Once I take a bit of a rest, I know I will.

I've been thinking a lot about the scrapbook I made for my parents. I ended up making copies of a lot of the photos. I just…I just can't part with all of them. A lot of these photos are of everyone smiling and having a good time. I want to keep those memories. Its silly, I know. I just like seeing people smile. Especially when things start going downhill for a bit. It's nice, remembering good moments, cause it makes me want to find a way to have them again.

I think it's about time I write a proper letter to my parents. Maybe not everything just yet, but enough to open up the conversation again.

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journal entry 35

Cal is missing.

Angel came running out of the museum loft. Its a mess..feathers and blood everywhere. We haven't found much, but from the little we did find Cal seemed to be one step ahead.

He left a note for Galloway, and with Angel and Gio's help we were able to find Cal's vault. We don't have the key to the safe though…I'm worried there's still things we're missing.

I spoke with Chamuel afterward. She seems pretty shaken still, and told me that she's avoiding Angel for the time being. I don't blame him after the fight the other day. But, she said it would be wrong to leave Cal to his kidnapper. Angel thinks that Cal's ex husband did it. I didn't even know he was married. He said he's going to go look for him. Something isn't sitting right with me though. Angel needs to rest, and take a moment. He's not stopping. And I don't know how to tell him that he can't keep charging around like this.

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journal entry 34

Is it wrong for me to feel like I'm running away?

I've started making an album of all my friends, of the parts of town that I love most. I wanted to record it all to show my parents, to give them a piece of my life while I'm trapped here. Gawain has been warming up to me again. She's been taking her time coming back, and I've treasured every moment we share.

Everyone else, however, seems to be unraveling with each passing day. There was a break in at the research center, and ingredients to make evernectar were stolen. Angel and Chamuel's arguments seem to be spreading to everyone else.

I don't know what happened, and I don't think I want to know. But today Lillie fought Angel and Cal on behalf of Chamuel. Cal wanted to let Lillie kill him. Angel said Lillie never changed. Dusk felt horrible about the whole thing. Chamuel looked terrified.

It was a lot. Like watching a wreck you can't look away from. And I can't help but feel like things are just going to get worse.

I want to leave town and keep researching the fog. I want to keep studying, but I worry what will happen to everyone in my absence. Galloway has offered to join me, but I don't want her to feel trapped either.

I don't think I can help anyone is the worst part. All I can do is to offer comfort to those that ask for it. It doesn't feel like enough.

And if I go, if I leave, and keep studying the island and magic on my own, and leave everyone as they are now, is that selfish of me? Is that cruel? Will they think I abandoned them in their time of need?

I need to think on things more. I need to make a better proposal than just leaving and hoping for the best.

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