@motherfated 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 : "It's going to be okay..." Areum whispers softly, wrapping an arm around Aya's shoulders, gently pulling her into her embrace, resting her chin on top of the woman's head as fingers comb through Aya's hair. "I promise..." | ☕ - reassuring touch. fight me i dare u. idk if this is bad but im sending it anyway. im gay.|
﹡ . ° touch // accepting .
❛ I ’ M OKAY , I ’ M ----- ❜ she is not . she is never okay when she comes back from seeing her half - siblings . SHE WONDERS WHY SHE KEEPS DOING IT . allows them to bait her into meeting them , when they all same the same shit all the time . she understands . why they hate her . she is proof that their father had not been perfect , she is proof that something had gone wrong & one of their perfect oh’s is stuck working in customer fucking service , with a bad hair cut & clothes she ’ d ripped herself . but oh , NOW they wanted to talk to her ! now that she was an rfa organiser , that she knew j.umin fucking h.an & had contacts .
her head falls into areum ’ s warmth . she squeezes her eyes shut . she is so --- so overwhelmed . she wants to cry , but no tears come out . ❛ i wish i could just . . . not care . but i do . it ’ s been so long but i still care . i want them to see me , to know that i ’ m not some sort of failure . ❜ her fingers curl in the soft fabric of areum ’ s shirt , & she heaves a small sigh .
❛ i thought it would be different . now that i have all of you . but they didn ’ t care about me . just what i did for the organisation , & --- & they all kept saying how this is the best i ’ ll ever be , that i lucked out & should be ecstatic that i ’ m not working as a cashier like my awful mother . what is wrong , with my mother working like that ? they never cared to get to know her . ❜