#motion training

[hopelessartgeek]

“He gets pulled into a hug.

Blind anger tries again to rear up inside him—now Steve is trying to fucking hug it out, and Bucky should break free, laugh in his face, punch him in the teeth, beat him till he bleeds. Instead he finds himself clinging to him, suddenly overwhelmed by the closeness of him, his weight, his warmth, his smell, clinging so tight he’s ruining his beautiful navy shirt, and he never really stopped crying since this whole mess started but now he’s sobbing so hard it’s difficult to breathe.”

Based on chapter 5 of Nonymos‘ fic Motion Training.

[elderberry-editing]

" “From afar it all looks like one long inevitable downwards slide, doesn’t it? No wonder you’ve come to treat it like one.”

It’s when Bucky tries to stop crying that he realizes he can’t." Nonymos; Motion Training

[elderberry-editing]

"He dreams of giving in."

Nonymos; Motion Training

[Image Description: Moodboard with nine squares. Top left to bottom right: Image of tied up hands, purple square with white text saying motion training, image of a sign saying 'sorry we're closed off emotionally'. Purple square with white text saying ten, image of sebastian stan sitting down, purple square with white text saying night. Image of the New York Subway System track, purple square with white text saying by nonymos, and image of light spilling through a cracked door.]

[elderberry-editing]

"Sometimes it feels like the nights are what’s real, and he’s dreaming his humble freedom by day. But even if that were true, well. If that’s the escape he gets, he’ll take it." Nonymos; Motion Training

[Image Description: Moodboard with nine squares. From top left to bottom right: top row has square image of a stark single fishing hook on a white background, a navy blue square with white text saying motion training, and a square image of a reflective white empty room with an opaque white window. Middle row has navy blue square with white text saying one, square image of sebastian stan aka Bucky Barnes, and a navy blue square with white text saying hook. Bottom row has square image of cracked concrete close up, navy blue square with text saying by nonymos, and square image of a public building exit sign.]

[elderberry-editing]

"He still saw it all through. Because after coming home from Steve, he realized he wasn’t going to stop feeling like this. So he had to do something." Nonymos; Motion Training

[Image Description: Moodboard with nine squares. Top left to bottom right - black and white image of Mark Ruffalo aka Bruce Banner, green gradient square with white text saying motion training, and a white square saying "hope is summarized in four words: the desire to live." -juansen dizon. Green gradient square with white text saying eleven, black and white image of 'Wheatfield with Crows' a painting by Van Gogh, and green gradient square with white text saying monster. A black and white image of a waiting room with three chairs and a clock, a green gradient square with white text saying by nonymos, and the logo of the Metropolitan Museum.]

[elderberry-editing]

"Usually he’d be panicking about wasting his time, wasting his freedom. But he’s not free today. None of what he does is his fault. Nobody can blame him for how pointless this is. He’s not in charge. He’s off the hook. His thoughts wander, but he doesn’t fall asleep. He just is." Nonymos; Motion Training

[Image Description: Moodboard with nine images. From top left to bottom right: Black and white image of where an arched window meets a ceiling with clouds painted on it, lavender square with white text saying motion training, and black and white image of fluffy white sherpa material. Lavender square with white text saying eight, a white image saying "It's okay if all you did today was survive" in a messy cursive font, and a lavender square with white text saying still. Black and white screenshot of a smartphone timer with 15 seconds remaining, a lavender square with white text saying by nonymos, and a black and white image of Chris Evans aka Steve Rogers looking smoking hot in a white t-shirt.]

[elderberry-editing]

"There is no true way around the feelings. Your only option is run screaming at them. You said you did not want to waste time with coping mechanisms. You are tired of stalling. So. One thing left to do. Barrel through." Nonymos; Motion Training

[Image Description: Moodboard with nine squares. Top left to bottom right - white square with the words ' i didn't come this far - to only come this far' divided by a drawing of a flower, a pink square with white text saying motion training, and a black and white photo of black chairs. a pink square with white text saying six, a hand holding a phone in the dark with a glowing white screen, and a pink square with white text saying circle. A picture of Lashana Lynch aka Maria Rambeau, a pink square with white text saying by nonymos, and a monochrome drawing of a tree growing near the edge of a cliff.]

[elderberry-editing]

"And he shouldn’t have to pretend. He’s free, or so everyone keeps telling him. That means he’s free to wreck everything." Nonymos; Motion Training

[Image Description: Moodboard with nine squares. Top left to bottom right: black and white image of a light switch, grey square with white text saying motion training, and a black and white image of shattered glass on a wooden floor. Grey square with white text saying five, black and white image of two men's silheouttes about to kiss or just finished kissing, and a grey square with white text saying sick. A black and white image of a sink still running water, a grey square with the white text saying by nonymos, and a screenshot of a text saying 'please don’t feel guilty for what happened. you saved my life. you saved it so completely i’m still trying to wrap my head around it. nothing either of us do can ever change that.']