im already dead part two josh balz imagine.
i got in my car and drove to stsrbcuks to go and meet chris. on the way i was blasting big bad wolf by in this moment. my favourite song by them. man these traffic lights took so long. this was the one thing i hate most about scranton the traffic lights take soooo long. i finally arrived after about half an hour. i saw chris in the corner with two coffees and he was looking at his phone. i cleared my throat and he looked up.
he stood up and gave me a hug whilst also towering over me even though he had his vans on.
he had the look of im up to no good but im not telling anyone what it is.
“just asking i also know what happened last night”
“i dont know what youre talking about”
“really cuz that is not what josh told me”
“im gonna kill him because nothing happened”
“well you like him dont you?”
“that is not something i am going to discuss with you right now”
“why not? y/n im your brother practically you have to tell me these things”
“1. yes you are my non biological brother 2 no i dont have to tell you these sort of things 3 yes i do like him”
“so why did you kick him out this morning?”
“because i may like him but i dont wanna feel like im only there when he needs me or wants me, you know i have to feel important and if he is always on tour then im not gonna feel that. i know i have been there since day one but he still can sometimes make me feel worthless. for example when he goes out and gets drunk and takes different women home and then im only there to cure his hangover. i dont wanna feel like that anymore. i may like him but i dont know if im ready for the difficulties that are gonna come with him”
“i know but you know if you like im you should tell him”
“i know but he is gonna reject me because im more of his sister not his GF”
i took a sip of my coffee and then we heard someone laugh nd shout chris. we looked over and it was josh and ricky.they came and sat with us and josh smiled at me.
he looked a bit shocked with the way i said it because id usually cal him an evil name but i didnt this time.
“nothing me and chris were just talking”
i could kill chris right now, hes gonna go and tell josh everything i said
he frowned and i stood up after finishing my coffee.
“come on chris we have places to be.”
“are you not going to invite us along”
“fine.....ricky do you wanna come with us cuz clearly josh does”
we walked out of starbucks and got into my car. we were sat in awkward silence and then chris put on slipknot. everything was fine. i had to find a parking space which took me about ten minutes. when i finally paid for the space and locked my car we walked towards hot topic. i felt a hand take mine and it was chris.
“youll see just act really miserbale but still hold my hand”
we walked into the shop and i went to the womens section. i was followed by chris who was still holding my hand. i looked through the jackets and found a black long leather jacket with buckles on it. it was really nice and chris said he would buy it for me. i bought some new jeans aswell. we walked to the dressing rooms and i tried on the jeans
“well what do you think?”
“they make your butt look good”
“seriously chris... you shouldnt be looking”
i got back changed and walked out ricky was with us now and it looked like josh wanted to kill someone. i mean that is how he looked everyday but he looked worse now.
after we had finished shopping we went back to mine and watched a movie. which turned into three and by the time we were watching SWEENY TODD THE DEMON BARBER ON FLEET STREET i was really tired so i went upstairs to get my pjs on and get into bed. ricky and chris were gonna stay in the two spare bedrooms and josh was on the couch. at least i thought he was downstairs. i got comfortable and then there was a knock on the door. i turned over and looked at the door where there was a stream of light coming through.
he opened the door and sat next to me on the bed. he looked sad and angry but also relieved at the same time.
“nothing just thinking about why chris was holding your hand i mean he likes someone else”
“i dunno but there must of been a reason of why he did it”
“i think i know why he did it. to make me jealous”
“what do you mean jealous?”
“because he knew that i like you and wanted to make me jealous.”
“oh since when did you like me though”
he laid down on my hip and i rubbed his back. he fell sleep and i was glad to know that he was mine finally
