I don’t know how I’m gonna explain this.... it’s like asking me to answer “what is the meaning of life?”
Well, first off, happy birthday. I really can’t believe you’re 21 now. You could legally drink in the US now... oh my god no I’m gonna stop right there.
Okay. So. You’re 21 now. I don’t know how I feel about this. You’re only four years older than my and I don’t know why that’s relevant but I said I wouldn't go back and delete anything so that’s staying there.
I really can’t believe it’s your birthday. I remember around this time last year I still hadn't chosen a bias in Astro and when it was your birthday, I was just happy because..... I don’t know today is just a happy day for me. You hadn’t become my bias this time last year. I hadn’t realized that Astro is my UB group. I didn’t know all these things and I can definitely say that I’m happy about the choices I’ve mad when it comes to this wonderful group of yours
I wish I could tell you all these things in person. That would make things so much easier.... wait no it wouldn’t. If I ever got to meet you in person, I would probably break down crying. I wouldn’t even be able to get any words out. Like I’d open my mouth and then tears would just start falling down my face. I’m not even joking that’s, exactly what would happen.
So here’s the thing. I love you. Like... like a lot. Like more than I can ever explain to anyone. Everything that I do reminds me of Astro in general. Like completely coincidentally my phone is the same color as Vivid Plum, so whenever I look at it I think of them. I had a friend of mine draw me a picture of Jinwoo and it’s the cutest thing ever which is my wallpaper right not and has been since December. And like.... they’re just always on my mind, either right up front and center or kinda just chililn in the back of my head.
And Jinwoo means so much to me. All I ever want for him is to be happy and healthy and enjoying life and just like.... I want him to enjoy life to the max. I want him to be well rested and eating well and getting enough sleep. I want him to be relaxed and loved.
I mean, I love hearing his rap voice in songs. I love watching him dance on stage. I love seeing more of him, but I also want him to be relaxed. I want him to be eating properly and spending just quality time with his members. And maybe he already does all of this, and I would be really happy.
This letter is really such a bad idea. Me trying to explain this isn’t working is it...
Okay new attempt:
Park Jinwoo I love you
I love you more than there are drops of water in all the oceans
I love you more than there are stars in the sky
I love you more than there are words in all the languages of the world - spoken or forgotten - combined
I love you more than there is space in the universe
I love you with my entire heart, body, and soul
I love you now and I will love you forever.
I love you
Thank you for being born
Thank you for becoming a trainee at Fantagio
Thank you for staying a trainee
Thank you for going thru the i-Teen process
Thank you for surviving that
Thank you for becoming part of Astro
Thank you for taking on the role of being the leader
Thank you for debuting
Thank you for making my life more complete
Thank you
Happy Birthday.
Stay healthy
Don’t injure yourself
If you do get injured, take the proper time to recover
