About why I never post in this blog anymore.
Click on “Read more” if you want to read my reasons why.
Okay. So I haven’t been the best HCR fan lately.
"Maybe it’s because I’m too busy with university and I moved to another country so I just don’t have time anymore", I said to myself.
"Maybe it’s because nothing’s actually happening in the HCR world", I said to myself.
"Maybe it’s because they don’t even go to tumblr anymore", i said to myself.
But do you really really wanna know why? Because I think their new music, their new HCR, doesn’t really fit me well.
I became a HCR fan about 2 years ago. “Tonight Tonight” was the first song I ever listened from them, but do you wanna know what made me become a fan? Lovesick Electric. I listened to that album on repeat for about a MONTH. I fell deeply in love with the melody, with the lyrics, with the voice, with everything. I started to watch videos of them, old videos, to see how they treated their fans, and I fell more and more in love.
I’m not saying that they, as people, changed. I don’t know them personally like that. I KNOW they treat their fans the best way possible and that will not change. I’m here to talk about music.
You know the new single? “Don’t Say Goodnight?”. I’ve listened to it once. To me, the best (and only) good part of the song is the chorus. I just despise the rest of the song. It doesn’t go with the chorus, it’s lame. I’m being totally honest. It doesn’t tell me anything. It sounds like “I Like It Like That”, but worse. And I do think ILILT is a fun song and I love the music video, but it doesn’t bring me anything new, anything meaningful.
Then Ian left. I’m pretty sure he had a reason and, just as I do, I know he wishes Ryan, Nash and Jamie the best. But I do think they grew apart musically and maybe (I can’t be sure) also personally. Your interests change. I really changed in those 2 last years. I change and grow all the time. And I don’t really think the type of song they are trying to make is really suitable to me. I want meaningful lyrics, things that can really make a difference in my life, not another fun dance song that I will not even remember later.
I can remember a lot of their songs. I know they have talent. I believe they can do SO MUCH better. I don’t care if they’re gonna read this (they still follow me, but they haven’t been on tumblr in AGES). I care about them. I really wish them the best. They treated me so well, they really treat every fan in a especial way, I will never forget it, I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THEM. I just think that we’re on different chapters (musically I mean). So I don’t really see a point in posting things in a blog about them, nor I even have the time to do it. I’ll NOT delete it, in anyway. I have awesome memories.
I just want them to know that deep down I’m still a fan of them… Of their talent (Ian as well and I’m really loving the stuff he has come up with because you can see why he left, they were in different pages as well). I will always be fan. I will always dance to I Like To Dance, I will ALWAYS sing the la la la whatever in Tonight Tonight, I will ALWAYS cry to Last One Standing or Forever Unstoppable or Bleed, I will always love Bushes, Queen of The Scene, Nothing Left to Hide, Heart Hurts, The Only One, Problematique etc! ALWAYS. I will ALWAYS KEEP THEM WITH ME. I just want you to know that maybe out grew their new music. And I will always be a fan of them, even though I’m not a fan at all of their new song.
You can judge me as much as you want. Some people say that you’re not a real fan if you don’t stay with them till the end. I say that they taught me to be honest, to be true, to be transparent… And I will not lie to myself so that people won’t say things like “you’re a fake fan” to me. I know I am not. I don’t need anyone telling me what to do or what to be. I’m a beautiful freak, I’m a firestarter, I’m forever unstoppable, I’m the HCRawr girl or whatever. They know who I am, I know who I am. I know what I like and I do not like. I just need to say it out loud, because maybe too many people follow this blog and think I have just abandoned it. It isn’t like this.
