#movingbackhome

[jackjack1287]

Throwback Thursday to few days ago when celebrating Xmas! So good to be back home with family, has such a great time! Been really spoiled this year, clearly they missed me. Made the right choice to move back home to be with my love ones. #xmas2017 #spoiled #santababy #movingbackhome #instagay #gaysian #gaylondon #gayparis #santagay (at Ile-de-France, France)

[missbior]

Starting from scratch

[zennyelsie]

Completed the trip back home, a 15hr drive (1356 kms), convoy trip with hubby, he was driving the company car fully loaded with my stuff and I drove my personal car which was loaded too. More than 2 years ago, I went to Sydney with two suitcases only. It’s amazing how I accumulated things during my stay in Sydney. I have to gave away my furnitures and fridge. #roadtrip #movingbackhome (at Morphett Vale, South Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CL32iadgsmR3KYovrffovDBcJ_VFx9Sc4RZU_k0/?igshid=15luum3a0df27

[southernyang]

But this happened today too! The sellers accepted my offer! #newhouse #THEhouse #movingbackhome #virginiabound #ilovethishouse https://www.instagram.com/p/B1F2f-xhO_v/?igshid=10l7uu3gaijji

[poppypeach]

Wishing you all a very merry Christmas 🎄 from our minimalist (half packed pad) to yours #christmas #goodtimes #movingbackhome #lastchristmas #farewell #california (at Mountain View, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Br0t6B6BMZs/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=qjczvtqf1sia

[quillandcunty]

There's a reason I really dislike discussing my future with my parent. Yes I know I could've done better in the past no need to pile on to my shit while I'm working through things damn!

[poppypeach]

Goodbye Melbourne see you in 2019 for good #melbourne #love #home #movingbackhome #friends #family (at Melbourne Airport)

[tinynachosheep]

Boomerang Child Blues; a FB correspondence excerpt

im coming to a fuller appreciation / realization that is is possible for my parent to genuinely love and care for me so much and have my best (at least most well-intended! ) interests at heart and also apparently see me as a helpless child incapable of making her own choices, and unable to handle full autonomy :S 

I need to get out of here asap facckkkkkkkk

also there are some fundamental clashes in lifestyle

ie i think that flexibility in sleep schedule, and knowing that i am able to (quietly!) have the light in my room on, and maybe even have a shower when it is after dark, like after midnight

not like i do this all the time, but sometimes that’s just what happens, and if I forced myself to stay in bed with the light out i’d just go a tiny bit crazy

but my mom, with her (genuine and I honestly appreciate that it is a real, extremely painful, debilitating, anxious chronic struggle, not denying that at all - just realizing that it makes for a very very volatile combination when we sleep on the same floor and generally share a living space) angsty sleeping, will completely lose her shit on me if this (my late nights ) happens do disturb her sleeping on a bad night

like be outside waiting in the dark outside the bathroom door when i open it to leave and go to bed  and proceed to go on the most epically intense  are-you-trying-to-kill-me, how-are-you-so-inconsiderate, i-try so hard to make compromises for you and why do you do this in return- impassioned diatribe

faccckkkkkk

this happened regularly during the last grey spell and im appreciating now more fully how it probably reaallly didnt do much for bringing me out of my dysthymic turtle shell

between that and my dad's occasional tantrums angrily bemoaning my being a fucking "princess" (because i like to sleep in, esp when depressed, and also am not helpful around the home as much as i ought to be, and also just have nothing to say when he and my mom try reaallllly hard (in good faith! they are really worried that someday theyll be gone and ill still be fucked financially and so obvs without them to support me ill wind up on the streets!)

to get me to open up and enlighten them as to why i find it so difficult/ am so resistant to fully cooperating with and adopting the healthy and success-inducing lifestyle changes they know will solve all my fuckup problems and fix my fucked up life/ self <333