Dan Mangan - Post War Blues
Eti and Rhos obviously have really different experiences with the wars they experienced - Eti was a civilian during the Dragonsong War and suffered directly from the natural disaster and the strain of being the bottom rung in a strained and oppressive society, while Rhos was in the Ala Mhigan resistance with all of the danger, betrayals, and violence that surely brought. But both of them bonded early on in their experience of coming from places that are ‘broken’, wondering what their place is now that their homes have changed, trying to find more gentle ways to contribute to the places they love. Wartime mentality can’t bring you peace, and yet it’s still fresh within the memory. And yet there’s this drive, this wish that there could be something reckless and dangerous and unambiguous to be devoted to - there’s this yearning undercurrent.
Make me a means to an endMake me an ending in sightMake me insightful againWhat I can't seeI can't fight
The journey with PTSD tends to be realizing that the shit you did when you were actively needing to survive don’t work now. And they shouldn’t, because ideally, one is happier and safer, but... hell, sometimes you miss knowing who the enemy is! If your enemy is like, exes and paying your rent on time, it’s progress but it might feel a waste at times. I think they both know that about one another, even if it goes unsaid.
The sarcastic opening verse of the song definitely echoes Etienne’s personal sentiments about the Dragonsong War vs. M’rhos fighting the Garleans, though I think Etienne would use similar language to argue against the use of violence to solve problems in a general way. :’) But that ties in not only to their respective survival (and survivor’s guilt), but their personalities as well.
Thank you for the ask, @mrhos-xiv !