It's odd being observant. The world often times will push aside observation and understanding in favor of making it out to be some sort of demonic, vile act. You make a lot of enemies and a lot of people don't seem to really like you. It's hard knowing how many people dog on you, shit on you, because you think it's all justified at first. If that many people must be doing it, it must be true.
But the truth of the matter is that there are so many people out there who will hate you for what you've done rather than who you are. A singular bad action doesn't make you a bad person. Who you are at your core, what you do as a person and what you hold true to your heart makes up who you are. Arbitrary labels like 'good person' or 'bad person' don't really mean anything. You can do evil and be good. You can do good and be evil. A world with someone by your side is odd to believe, but it's true.
Don't ever believe that you are alone, that you have no one to truly love. The love of others doesn't really matter when you have those few people who you can lean on. Society sucks, but people don't.
"I could draw a thousand canvases, each more beautiful than the last, but to those that matter most, it wouldn’t matter at all. They love me not for what I put into the world, not for burying myself in my work. But because I love them no matter what."