Woke up thinking...
I was my absolute heaviest when i met the man i was going to marry. Like to me, i was a mess at that point; nothing would fit me and i could feel myself getting bigger and bigger, which brought my self confidence down to an ultimate LOW.
I remember being on our 4th/5th date and he takes me to one of his volley ball games. I sat on the side watching him play and noticed so many girls with KILLER bodies- like have you ever seen those volleyball girls with the tiny shorts and GORGEOUS bodies to match? well pretty much every other girl there was like that, and i actually thought to myself ‘why is he even dating me?’ -and yet whenever the break whistle would blow he’d jog on back to me with this huge grin on his face, like he just couldn't wait to talk to me again...like i was the only person in that room...
i remember sitting in his car that same date and just blurting out ‘i don't usually look like this you know! - i mean..umm ... i’m carrying a bit of holiday weight .. i usually look a lot different!’ and he just stared at me with the cutest most confused expression on his face, and said ‘oh ok?... well i think you look gorgeous right now just as you are’...
We’ve been together for about a year and a half... in that time i’ve yoyo’d a little with my weight... NEVER ONCE has he made me feel like i look any more or less attractive to him.. when i tell him i lost a pound he does a little happy dance with me... and when i tell him i’m feeling unmotivated or a little bloated he reminds me of my blessings...
Loving someone unconditionally is so rare these days, but that’s all he’s ever done right from the start.. and that is what motivates me in the way that i’ve NEVER been motivated before.. I want to achieve my ultimate body goals because he deserves me at my absolute best... because he deserves only the very best in life and forever after that.