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Why should I trust anyone ?🎭🎭

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Jay Mahakal🔱🔱🚩🚩

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Father of All Universe #jaymahakal🌺📿 #shiva #fathersday #mtrmuzic (at Bettiah) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBsXkCyJGsi/?igshid=1ck0qke951i0x

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Every night

I fight w/ my own mind

Like 2 hurricanes crashing

inside 1 fragile skull

U know what hurts the most?

Not losing u

It's watching myself

slowly disappear after u

I still play ur voice

like an old cassette tape

w/ dust on it

broken but impossible to

throw away.

Sometime during midnight

I still see ur smile

Soft, like it's dangerous

Like Shiva accidentally

left heaven open for a second

"Just so I could survive u again"

& maybe I'm stupid

maybe I'm confused addiction

w/ destiny.

maybe I thought

the cosmos wrote our names together

in some invisible constellation

full now?

Now the stars look silent

I walk as crowded

like a astronaut without u ghost

breathing

but never alive enough

I wanna text u sometimes

Just: "Hey"

Just: "r u okay?"

Just: "do u still think about me when it rains

@ 3 AM?"

But ego is beside me

like oxycodone for pain

so I stay quiet

U moved in beautifully

I stayed behind emotionally

Like an abandoned house

still waiting for footsteps

that already found another home

Funny thing is

I wanna myself

"Don't love this hard"

"Don't feel all once"

"Don't worship the new god who never grant

u wings"

But my heart never listens

it rots

& now every memory of u

cuts like shattered glass

inside my chest

I miss the old days

Not coz back then

I slept peacefully

Now every night feels heavy

I very song sounds like u

Every moon looks injured

I feel really not again

in another universe

another timeline

another lifetime

I hope we meet

before the damage happens

Before silence wins

Before love becomes trauma

Before I become this version of myself

who smiles outside

but collapse inward

Till then,

I'll keep carrying ur ghost

like a secret religion

inside my ribs.

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The day I fell in love with someone after my family... That day changed everything. My life has felt like a stormy sea ever since that day. A sea that will never be calm again. The waves get stronger every day, the wind gets colder, and the silence inside me gets deeper. Every day feels a little more broken than the one before. 🙂

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Lean on Shiva.

Be honest.

Be vulnerable.

He knows.

He sees.

He heals.

🔱🔱🚩🚩

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Mid-day photography 😍😍 #MTRMUZIC #middayphotography https://www.instagram.com/p/CD-LHuWJREc/?igshid=1rkb4xfjyqdww