Apr 3, 2020
Ugh. Feelings.
#okay just gonna say them#although in the great scheme of things they are first world problems#in the midst of a pandemic that is altering life permanently for nearly everyone alive#but it's how I feel#multiple feels#in the end though I wish everybody well#stay safe & stay healthy#and tell your people you love them & what they mean to you 'cuz you cannot know what the future brings#okay the feels#worried about my niece who insisted on staying in NYC as of 3 weeks ago#sad dejected disappointed over a long drawn out rejection I have gotten#but I'm not gonna do what comes naturally to me ad beg!#lonely but I'm much better with it since the covid self-isolation began#doing better with it from truly seeing the big picture which made me kick myself in the ass for feeling sorry for myself#regretful but accepting of my world continuing to narrow as my access to wifi keeps getting more & more restricted#but hell that's easy to survive#happy about what I've been writing this week#but simultaneously wondering why I bother because when I post it--it will surely be ignored#but still I will persist#relieved to be on leave from work especially as someone in my store just tested positive#and in the end I feel safe after weeks of fear & uncertaainty#and that's...that I suppose
